@RandomCitizen123
I'm almost intimately familiar with this. I do a similar thing, though I wouldn't categorize it as perfectionism. It's different than that. I would have to take some time to think of how to explain it. Pm me if you would like.
@RandomCitizen123 the answer is to grow up and take a serious relationship if you dont want to feel jealous. Look for a loyal woman who will be yours only if u want exclusive nudes!
@randomcitizen123 It seems to me that you are a good nature'd person that has concerns over other people and how they are/think.
Without knowing your age it is difficult to give an idea as to the potability of anxiety or not.
At the rip old age of 42 I have (for many years now) always been concerned about what others think, but not so much that it would cause me personal issues.....
for example: I used to be extremely conscious of my size (build) ... to the point that if I was sitting by the river on a summers day I could hear others joking about my stature.... This however did not stop me from going the the river to enjoy my time there.
I would suggest that you may need to learn not to over think about what others are saying or thinking about you. If there is something that they are saying (negatively) about you but not saying it to your face then they are the one's that have the problem because they can't speak directly to you. This would also suggest that they are not worth your time, effort or thought.
If on the other hand they mentioned to you what they were saying (good or bad) then maybe they are worth making time for.... because they have taken the time to communicate to you their thought's or feelings.
End of the day, don't waste your time on it.... :)
@randomcitizen123 I don't know how to fix depression, but you could start by fixing things you can fix, maybe fix your diet, exercise, get a meaningful job or find meaning in your job, help your neighbours, clean your house, wake up at the same time everyday. Basically get a routine and stick to it. Hopefully, you can fill your day up so there's no room for depressing feelings.
