I'm almost intimately familiar with this. I do a similar thing, though I wouldn't categorize it as perfectionism. It's different than that. I would have to take some time to think of how to explain it. Pm me if you would like.
lmao why tf are you still replying to me?? did i really hurt your feelings that bad? :D:D ffs get over it, i honestly don't feel like waking up every day to get 3 love letters from you on tws lmao