I am also living with anxiety, i take a medication and see my therapist biweekly to treat PTSD. So I know what you're talking about. You're not alone. It's not uncommon to ask for the details of your blood work, its ok for them to be a little off, theres a margin of what is considered safe. They'd take action if it was something serious. But I get what thats like having that nagging thought in mind that always thinks of the worst possible outcome. Living with anxiety is a hard way to go through life. It's constricting, uncomfortable, relentless, and its exhausting. We all have worries from time to time, but it dissipates. But when your worries are capable of going 0 - 600 mph at a moments notice and maintain speed. . . .its not how life was meant to be. Have you thought about seeking help with your anxiety? If you haven't, i highly recommend it. I didn't want to reach out for help for the longest time. I was uncomfortable with having to tell another human face to face that was concerned about my mental health with regards to anxiety. There was some guilt and shame as well as. . . you guessed it, anxiety. But I wasn't getting any better, and my anxiety was starting to affect those around me, family, close friends, and work. I made the leap one day and set the appointment. Best thing I ever did for myself- bar none. The medication I'm taking is a life saver, its such a relief. and with talking with my therapist we've been working on my PTSD and coping with the traumatic event. You know, im not gonna lie. I still worry about things, but with the help of the therapy and meds combined, im able to do just that, worry. I can worry like a normal person, I don't go to those darks scenarios and morbid "what ifs" that only endure more anxiety. But if you'd ever like to talk about it, know that I'm here. And believe me when i say, I know what you mean by being healthy, but not at your healthiest. much love my dude.

@navyy0047 okay don't wanna talk. take care!

UPDATE (and the last1 on this topic) : I found out she was cheating on me at least since February, with more than 3 guys. This may sound weird, but I felt a relief. I realized this wasn't my fault and it was her choice and there was nothing I could do. I finally was able to smile, laugh, eat, feel at peace, love myself and respect myself more than I ever did. I "tested" to see if I really feel better. I tried to go to the cinema w/o her, to see if I can enjoy it alone( For many years I went only with her at the cinema). Not just that I enjoyed, but it was better than the last years. It made me realize I have to be responsible for my happiness, I could chose the movie, where to eat, if I wanted coffee or not. Overall, it was amazing. I even pushed it even further. I knew she used to love frozen and not many hours ago i thought i will never be able to see that movie. But I went to frozen and it was an amazing movie, an amazing experience and I felt refreshed. All that hate that i had felt for myself transformed into self esteem and love, because I knew I acted like a gentleman until the very end and it was nothing I could've changed. The hardest step was to forgive myself for not being good enough to be with her. And if I didn't receive this news about her, I would still be at the rock bottom. All of this happened so fast, I can barely remember the last few days. I smoked 22 Cigarette packs from Tuesday until now. Overall, I would like to thank everyone for their support. W/o you guys I would've never had the power to try and find out the truth. I really appreciate your support. If anyone still has questions, feel free to dm me, I'll answer honestly and offer whatever detail you want. I hope this tread will help someone else one day. With love, Andrew

@uncledominique Hmu to find out

Such a nice work!! Good luck

I have to be strong..

@cathhh Oh I see well hope it goes well

Hey! Want to chat about it?

I prefer summer or spring since i get sick a lot

Hey Amiga

try listening to the most vapid music you can imagine and watch meaninless action movies like kingsment

it feels good but it gets uncomfortable when things are good and same always. there is always a need for change in our lives.

@randomcitizen123 It seems to me that you are a good nature'd person that has concerns over other people and how they are/think. Without knowing your age it is difficult to give an idea as to the potability of anxiety or not. At the rip old age of 42 I have (for many years now) always been concerned about what others think, but not so much that it would cause me personal issues..... for example: I used to be extremely conscious of my size (build) ... to the point that if I was sitting by the river on a summers day I could hear others joking about my stature.... This however did not stop me from going the the river to enjoy my time there. I would suggest that you may need to learn not to over think about what others are saying or thinking about you. If there is something that they are saying (negatively) about you but not saying it to your face then they are the one's that have the problem because they can't speak directly to you. This would also suggest that they are not worth your time, effort or thought. If on the other hand they mentioned to you what they were saying (good or bad) then maybe they are worth making time for.... because they have taken the time to communicate to you their thought's or feelings. End of the day, don't waste your time on it....

@randomcitizen123 I don't know how to fix depression, but you could start by fixing things you can fix, maybe fix your diet, exercise, get a meaningful job or find meaning in your job, help your neighbours, clean your house, wake up at the same time everyday. Basically get a routine and stick to it. Hopefully, you can fill your day up so there's no room for depressing feelings.

@neeraj-singh that goes without saying

@sᴛʀᴀɴɢᴇʀ said in Let's talk about stuff and stuff anxiety: @cjko exactly correct YEAH.. you should apply this too

@rendezvous where have you been ? Welcome

open your eyes widely so you can see the person who really cares about you and try to give her a chance don't say there's no one cause always there's someone who wants to be with you but you never notice ..

@hope-elizabeth hey follow me and send a msg I'll read you a story

@wound_dagger Oh yes. It's pathological even. I have a social anxiety disorder and an avoidant personality disorder diagnoses.