Posts made by RandomCitizen123

Evertime i get into something i feel like i have to infest in it and know everything about it..
i can listen to a new artist and now Im looking up all the songs and and everything about that person
that alone is not so bad but when you do it with EVERYTHING it gets overwhelming, i go from a song to another song to playing a game which i love to 100% all my games which is more on my mind, i think between multiple Tv shows, multiple games, movies more songs and not mentioning going through the day or home work i feel like i have to know everything about everything kinda like readying myself if someone where to ask me a question, but most of the time i forget and then sit there and try to remember what i was suppose to say and most of the time i'll rehearse everything for that particular question, and i think of every question i can come up with for every category , games movies etc. its been awhile since I've been able to have a peace mind and be in the present instead of thinking ahead so much and its so hard to concentrate...

So Im friends with benefits with a female that works at MacDonald and i tend to get jealous sometimes what she does i mean we both cant get jealous for many reasons but im gonna be short its just really with the nudes where i get jealous over, the thing with me is if you did not take it within the same day or a recent conversation i'll get a little picky say yo girl has blue hair and send you a picture of her with red hair (unless she died it) its gonna bother me cause 1 its gotta be old and if its old its been in her phone for awhile...why is it in her phone who else she sending this to? but long story short she sent me a picture if her in the bath then days later a video in same tub (unless new video) i was like if its old why didn't i get it then? and if its new then who asked you to do it? cause i didn't unless girls just take random nudes....but at same time why you taking these in first place, sorry guess ima jealous type i mean we see each other almost everyday so i guess i cant complain, its just i don't want nudes that other dudes already saw

also i do same thing i save my nudes too so i cant get too frustrated lol

did you get her number anything? if you do im sure intereacting with her wouldnt hurt anything maybe you'll meet again :)
but if sadly you have no way to reach her then thats just how things go... the way i look at it is you'll go threw this type of stuff like 1000 more time, me personally met a girl at a carnival and liked her and never got her number so i i was kinda bummed out years later same shit lol so i guess its just part of life lol well in my life, yours might have a more happier ending lol

This bout the only place i can let out my thoughts but i tend to over think and idk why... idk if its because of my other problems or what...like for example i'l stress over small stuff such as say you wanted to pick a title for a comic book between ''bugs and daffy'' or ''daffy and bugs'' most would probably choose bugs and daffy, me personally lik daffy and bugs because its different but i wonder why are people picking bugs and daffy is it because its the first choice? when someone has a different opinion or something i feel like i choice something wrong.. then another thought proceeds its wrong to be different....then another thought what is ''different'' then think 30 mins about what is different... by the time i finish so much has already happened... cant really enjoy movies cause i'll tend to the same fot it... i'll think of myself in that situation of a movie and think what i would do...by the time i quit thinking the movies over...i feel like if i dont get an anwser im not smart enough or something isnt complete. this can be on any situation...sometimes i'll just think of every possibity of something or what i should of said then be like but what would happen if i said that and so on.... it took me like 10 mins to make the title right... i was gonna put '' i think so much my head hurts everyday'' but then i thought '' i think everday my head hearts'' and like 3 other titles idk why i think like this.. idk if its anxiety or what, what if i didnt mention anxiety would you still mention what might be wrong?... i hate being like this i gotta drink to clear my mind cause it constantly feels like a piece of paper being crumbled 24/7

Long story short when someone has another opinion then me it makes me feel like im wrong or i did something wrong..i dont know if its just anxiety or im just to nice, like i'll give my opinion and everything just idk who is right or wrong too

FOR EXAMPLE: i move out because of my loud obnoxious neighbors, i move into a beautiful house and im happy, but what about what my neighbors are saying about me? what if theyre saying they glad i left or theyre sad i left or maybe dont care at all, to me i would think "that is not my life style and i am happy now" if they say "Im happy you left" i would reply "well that makes two of us" but then i would feel like im rude :( what if they really are happy i left? i mean i would be too its just idk i guess opinions bother me, or maybe anxiety

The past year or so i have been feeling an EXTREMELY overwhelming feeling of sadness..
not sure how to explain but i'll try, i have learned that it is ok to be sad, angry, tired sometimes but i feel like the way i have been feeling its multiplied by 100, random moments i'll feel sooo upset to the point i wanna go in a corner and scream and kick and shout and cry and idk why, i'll wake up thinking hey im gonna have a good day today and do blah blah blah, but theres a second thought automatically in my head....dreams only happens in movies...why even try and so on and so forth
its very obvious i have depression but idk how bad... im gonna say im always upset about myself because of the multiple problems i have i tend to over think over thinking and i get upset because of that, i dont know what is right and what is wong much like tryna figure out myself as well....any help?

im in a similar situation, the way i think is just fuck yo parents if they really like that bro, get a a way of income and just get the hell out of there, i dont even talk to my parents all i need is my self and if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend you have them and also your friends and family that dont be on that negative energy

i often over think waaaaay to much to the point it gives me headaces, i often think way to much of a subject if it is not resolved for example i'll do a math problem I've learned that there is more then one way to get an awnser instead of moving on to the next problem i'll sit there and try to figure out every possibly to get that anwser...

another thing i often think about is i think i take things too serious for example i'll watch a scary movie and my friends would tell me its ok its fake then im like ok cool :) but then i think wait what about the good movies like 8 mile or any movies that gives you inspirations....are those fake too..

i always think what if this or what if that like say i have a choice i'll pick one then think about what could of happened with the other choice

i feel like i dont explain myself enough this is just 1 problem i have
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