All okie I do get it, want to know more about the colors, stay In dark for a while without light inside the room painted in pitch black color.. and stay for 2 days (48 hours)inside not seeing light, i mean in dark, for more enhancements try some hallucinating substance you will know for yourself..also can see the colors which do not exist in surroundings.. warning, will be hard to appreciate the colors you see ..
@randomcitizen123 It seems to me that you are a good nature'd person that has concerns over other people and how they are/think.
Without knowing your age it is difficult to give an idea as to the potability of anxiety or not.
At the rip old age of 42 I have (for many years now) always been concerned about what others think, but not so much that it would cause me personal issues.....
for example: I used to be extremely conscious of my size (build) ... to the point that if I was sitting by the river on a summers day I could hear others joking about my stature.... This however did not stop me from going the the river to enjoy my time there.
I would suggest that you may need to learn not to over think about what others are saying or thinking about you. If there is something that they are saying (negatively) about you but not saying it to your face then they are the one's that have the problem because they can't speak directly to you. This would also suggest that they are not worth your time, effort or thought.
If on the other hand they mentioned to you what they were saying (good or bad) then maybe they are worth making time for.... because they have taken the time to communicate to you their thought's or feelings.
End of the day, don't waste your time on it.... :)
Damn. Reading this hit the feelings. Honestly it was the better choice for you to tell her. Especially if you have been feeling for her already. It's only those "What if" moments because here you are liking someone and not knowing how they feel. Wondering what should you tell her and if you should. At the same you gotta loom out for yourself.. its better to know than to never know, it was a risk you took. I can only imagine what you are feeling having opened up your heart and writing a song for her and she not responding. It can mean a number of things.. but in my honest opinion, I think you shouldn't give up just yet. Give your all so at least in the end you'll know you did and how much it meant to you. Losing someone special hurts but it hurts more to have feeling kept inside. I would also try to talk to her once in person. See why she did what she did and how she feels.. it's better for you to know it all then to wonder later on. Hope this helps or give you some insight and thanks for writing on my post vent.
I think the same thing I think of Italian (my country), American, New Zealand or Alpha Centauri guys ..
They are people ... as such, they should not be judged by the country of origin but by their actions
Time spent together in a relationship is not to be quantified. Its the qualitative aspect that matters..
More thought should be given on "How should we have quality time with each other?"
x Days y Hours z minutes doesnt matter..
Because you will always remember those MOMENTS!!