felt this for a few weeks to a month now; the longer I stayed online, the more I preferred to be offline, but this isn't all it's about.
The few who are my friends here know about my problems with my dad, his mental health and how he is affecting my family. I just watched my strong mother burst into tears about how helpless she feels, and it broke something inside me.
I'm nearing my final semester in college. The things I swore I'd finish in my first semester lay unfinished to this day. Watching my mother wait for my dad to somehow learn how to love his family again magically connected in my mind to how I'm magically waiting for my life to straighten itself out. You guys have been a great source of laughter and encouragement, but you are too great. The hours I have spent online talking to you guys have become distractions from building a better life for myself.
I've watched the Breonna Taylor case, horrified how insignificant people portrayed her life to be, and my mind plagues me with the same question: what if that is me next? What if I die? What will people say about me? What have I accomplished in my life?
I've spent the longest time asking myself questions like that, and I have finally reached the crux of asking those questions. I'm going out into the world and making a name for myself.
Thank you guys for being my friends for so long. I wish you all the best in your careers, your lives, and your futures!

I’ve opened my private message to the public, meaning anybody can text me whenever, but I want to lay down the GROUND RULES:

1. If you’re only talking to me because you want my Insta, Discord, Snapchat, or whatever, YOU WILL BE BLOCKED. I don’t hand that stuff on the first meeting!

2. This one is a little selfish, but if you can’t text in proper English YOU WILL BE BLOCKED. I don’t have it in me to handle a choppy conversation.

3. I WILL NOT ALWAYS RESPOND. I am going through some shit right now and there’s a limit to a certain conversation. I know this is selfish, but I’ll respond when I feel I’m ready to. In the meantime, I encourage you to find other people to talk to

Hi! Just saying heya!

My favorite Black actor....taken from us.
Words have no weight to the hole that has been left behind in your passing.
RIP Chadwick Boseman. May your presence here on this planet helped shape the world into a better place.

I think this new opinions based on victimhood is racist against the white community. The basis is that the more minority you represent (say a black, gay, transsexual) deserves their opinions to be taken for more consideration than a straight white male. This is a blatant racism against the white community if I ever saw it.

@mikeJB @emilyyyyy ooh he’s totally a tsundere. “I-it’s not like I like you or anything! I’m just being hounded by your posts and I respond the minute they’re dropped. Baka!”

My dad’s birthday came and went. My mom found out he spent it with another woman and filed for divorce.
My dad told me how his unfulfilling sex life had made him suicidal, then proceeded to try and convince me that a polygamous marriage was somehow godly and necessary for his marriage. I told my dad that if he tried to pursue this, he would lose me as a daughter. He didn’t seem to care that much.

I just feel so hollow, like a bag of meat walking around.

Once many years ago, Pilgrims landed in Massachusetts after enduring a terrible voyage that lasted months and killing many of their friends and family. Even when they landed their troubles were far from over. They stared at miles of unfamiliar land inhabited by unfamiliar people, the winter months rolling into the horizon, and barely any food to sustain them. They had little choice but to build shelter from the cold, harvest what little they cold, and tend after their weak. More than half of the original settlers died in those first few months. It was only by the kindness of neighbors and some unknown hidden strength did the foundations of America endure.

Flash forward four centuries. We have endured and continue to endure global pandemic, the likes of which we have never seen in modern history. We’ve seen political machinations and webs that draw sustenance on pitting American against American, and now we stare at the future with less certainty than ever before.

If there’s anything to learn from Thanksgiving, it’s this: learn to love one another, depend on each other. The Pilgrims and the Native Americans believed in different Gods, different political agendas, even different environmental goals. It didn’t stop the Native Americans to reach out to the strangers with a love that is too foreign in our eyes. Show true thankfulness to your neighbors by helping them in their time of need. Happy Thanksgiving

Lol that makes sense! The world economy is finally saved!!

I don’t really get that much views on my content, but what do you guys typically expect when you see a NIAROX post?
It also doesn’t hurt if you guys tell me what type of content you want to see more of. Anything to keep my name on your lips!

Once many years ago, Pilgrims landed in Massachusetts after enduring a terrible voyage that lasted months and killing many of their friends and family. Even when they landed their troubles were far from over. They stared at miles of unfamiliar land inhabited by unfamiliar people, the winter months rolling into the horizon, and barely any food to sustain them. They had little choice but to build shelter from the cold, harvest what little they cold, and tend after their weak. More than half of the original settlers died in those first few months. It was only by the kindness of neighbors and some unknown hidden strength did the foundations of America endure.

Flash forward four centuries. We have endured and continue to endure global pandemic, the likes of which we have never seen in modern history. We’ve seen political machinations and webs that draw sustenance on pitting American against American, and now we stare at the future with less certainty than ever before.

If there’s anything to learn from Thanksgiving, it’s this: learn to love one another, depend on each other. The Pilgrims and the Native Americans believed in different Gods, different political agendas, even different environmental goals. It didn’t stop the Native Americans to reach out to the strangers with a love that is too foreign in our eyes. Show true thankfulness to your neighbors by helping them in their time of need. Happy Thanksgiving

Lol I can’t reply when you keep leaving the chat room Lazz!
But masks are meant to help; we should use them since clearly people can’t stay away from each other

Lol thought you’d might’ve run out of songs by now

felt this for a few weeks to a month now; the longer I stayed online, the more I preferred to be offline, but this isn't all it's about.
The few who are my friends here know about my problems with my dad, his mental health and how he is affecting my family. I just watched my strong mother burst into tears about how helpless she feels, and it broke something inside me.
I'm nearing my final semester in college. The things I swore I'd finish in my first semester lay unfinished to this day. Watching my mother wait for my dad to somehow learn how to love his family again magically connected in my mind to how I'm magically waiting for my life to straighten itself out. You guys have been a great source of laughter and encouragement, but you are too great. The hours I have spent online talking to you guys have become distractions from building a better life for myself.
I've watched the Breonna Taylor case, horrified how insignificant people portrayed her life to be, and my mind plagues me with the same question: what if that is me next? What if I die? What will people say about me? What have I accomplished in my life?
I've spent the longest time asking myself questions like that, and I have finally reached the crux of asking those questions. I'm going out into the world and making a name for myself.
Thank you guys for being my friends for so long. I wish you all the best in your careers, your lives, and your futures!

@mindigh There’s a vast difference between “I prefer black girls” to “I don’t date white girls.” It’s alright to have a preference (everybody does) but not dating someone because they’re white is discriminative, if not racist. Nobody can make you date people you don’t want to date, but don’t go walking around thinking you don’t have prejudice.

It hurts when the guy you’re attracted to won’t even consider you because of your skin, but there’s nothing to be done about that.
People are always gonna have preferences, but you should avoid people that prejudiced like the plague. There’s a vast difference between “I prefer black women” to “I don’t date white women.” One’s a preference, the other is prejudice or even racist

lol well for starters you could stop being so bored girl! Pick up a hobby, like shuffle board or some shit!

My favorite Black actor....taken from us.
Words have no weight to the hole that has been left behind in your passing.
RIP Chadwick Boseman. May your presence here on this planet helped shape the world into a better place.

It’s moments like these that make wish I wasn’t stingy with money and bought birth control pills
And no, not pregnant.

Haha haha HELL NOOOOO