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@OliveOlivia said in Conversations...:

Is it easy for you to have a conversation?

Yes and no.
It's very easy to have deep and meaningfull with certain people and the conversations can vary and cross different subject and never get boring but no, that's not common and I often find my conversations be about the weather or what they are doing... :shrug:
Let's say that I rather have a small group of different interests and I go to them whenver I wanna have a conversation I want and have it right there... Wanna talk about sports - gym buddies, wanna talk about work - work buddies, wanna talk about life - closest friends but someone that can have all that + weather talks are very very rare and should be treasured...

anyone who needs a pussy kissed?

@petrapark3r said in Olivia's Thoughts #08:

@OliveOlivia said in Olivia's Thoughts #08:

@petrapark3r said in Olivia's Thoughts #08:

@OliveOlivia said in Olivia's Thoughts #08:

Sometimes I get these feelings like I am supposed to do something. Like my life has an actual purpose that I need to fulfill and its big. I know it's not true and I am not in any position to think that it is, but every time I try to shake the feeling it comes back.

Cause it's true. And it's big. Huge actually.

That's what she said 😏😂

Usually that's what he says :yum:

I see what you did there 😂

@OliveOlivia said in What are your bad habits?:

@Lurker Why do you consider following your heart as a bad habit? Isnt that supposed to be a good thing?

I'm going to jump into that unasked because I can relate, so, there's a lot of times where it's way smarter to listen to the head instead of the heart, let alone the fact that feelings tend to make us blind.

@OliveOlivia lol

@OliveOlivia
idk y but ur topic remind me this

n nah I'll not gonna drink any of this 😖😖

There will just be a sign saying level 2

@Sup haha

@SynapticMisfire said in Olivia's Thoughts #06:

@OliveOlivia said in Olivia's Thoughts #06:

Jokes on you, I have no friends!

We should remedy that.

You're well spoken and articulate, smart, or at least you appear that way, yet clearly an introvert and perhaps even a bit socially inept, you're like the perfect online girlfriend.

We should enter an online romantic relationship during which we will exchange nudes, say sweet things to each other, unload all our emotional baggage and make promises to each other which will ultimately lead to nothing of substance and will end in bitter disappointment for both of us.

Joke's on TWS for not allowing me to give you more than one upvote. This made me crack... :joy: ...

@OliveOlivia said in What Realizations Flabbergast You?:

@Cunt-Fistula said in What Realizations Flabbergast You?:

When i realized the inevitability of my death, that took a while to wrap my head around

For some reason knowing that we will all die gives me comfort. When I think about immortality and living forever... just waking up everyday for forever and living like forever, I cant even fathom it, but it sounds like hell.

Agreed. I'm so glad I don't have to live on this earth forever!

@OliveOlivia
I understand how you feel, I sometimes feel like that in life!

@pe7erpark3r I believe in it was real since the doctors told me there was a nurse died 2 years ahead of me

@petrapark3r And tbh I don't even know her and idgaf lol

@OliveOlivia There is much we have yet to learn. Things we call now call basic science were treated as the highest magic only a few hundred years ago. Perhaps in a thousand more years we'll laugh at how things like this weren't understood at the time.

@VeryGay but u r already in dat club

@Lurker said in Olivia's Thoughts #03:

@petrapark3r

Just cuz they survive for a millenia doesn't mean they contain deep wisdom, more like enough smutt to keep ppl interested. Some like that, others don't and i'm the latter case. I just can't wrap my head around it :shrug:

But. They. Do. Actually. Especially the bible...

However you may decide not to believe me and keep your prejudice, that is your free choice :joy:

@OliveOlivia said in More Open Thoughts:

but if we constantly steer off the path of humbleness then are we ever humble? and if we or I follow this love inside, why do we keep failing?

We will never be perfectly humble no. But being human is not about being something, it is about becoming. That in itself requires humility ;-) . Being human is a process rather than a state. And if you stumble along the path of humility, and go left here, and go amiss on the right there, but always return, you will still grow eventually. The problem lies with not returning to this path, because you give up. That's where God's mercy comes in. He'll always help you get up again...

but me being kind only means something to me, to others, to cruel people, kindness means nothing. Im just supposed to trust that me being kind once, even if its in a single interaction, that it is enough?

It is a balancing act. You should not let them use you, you should show that you have have teeth, but then decide not to bite. This is actually the humble way. Because if you had no teeth you'd just be weak and you'd have no choice. That is not humility.

Even if it seems so you cannot say for sure that kindness means nothing to people. Maybe not now, but possibly one day, when the scales fall from their eyes. There have been countless examples of former non-believers who took years and years to see god's kind actions in their lives and begin to change their lives.

Did you know that religious conversion is the most successful cure for alcohol addiction? (it's no wonder that the 12 step programs originate from christian churches) And if someone converts they usually don't do that after a single act of kindness from a believer.

Sorry about the examples from faith again, but in this case they really are good examples and there are literally millions out there...

thank you for this, I will try to lead more with this love inside!

The hard part is that it requires trust, beforehand. It is like taking a step in the dark over a cliff and not knowing that you will be caught by this love. But you will.

@OliveOlivia said in E N T R Y:

@petrapark3r I understand what youre saying but I think this is something that is hard to revisit and try to recognize where the blame lies. This situation isn't something that just happened when I was little it has been my whole life and still is, I don't even know where responsibility can be taken when I've been nothing more than a naïve child, unaware of what a father figure was supposed to be. I don't think I could blame my dad either, I'm his child so I'm sure he loves me -at least I hope😂-I just don't think he knows how to really be a dad either, and I cant blame him for that. I think all I can do now is recognize that the problems exists and try to be more aware of the choices we both make.

The example with the old memory was more about showing that these things have a very real impact on our current day lives and also that they can be resolved in a very real way.

Talking about things, really talking about what you feel right now, and what you felt in your past, with someone who does not judge you and just accepts you in the here and now, can do wonders. Seriously. Read up on Carl Rogers if you want to get an idea what I'm talking about. Genius of relationships that man.

Responsibility is something other than blame. Maybe talking about things deeply makes it possible to give responsibility where it belongs, maybe not, but it will allow you to grow, I have no doubt.