@trose18 actually, my grandma loves me just as much

@stranger_danger said in Dog's Death ..."Good Dog! Good Dog!": @wtfjudith I.. I... I...I have no words to say ... I nearly dropped from my seat when I saw your pfp .. Kill it ,kill it... with fire !!! DO YPI HAVE A PROBLEM WITH COW PEOLPLE, HUH??? You are right tho ..there is few thing sadder than the finite lifespan of the ones we love. I easily get attached ...I dont think i can handle the heartbreak . Honestly same.. I have no fucking clue what I’m gonna do when my dog will go.. Okay ,A little background story : When I was a kid about 6-7 I was close with A neighboring dog ...I gave her food played with her Heh ...Rubbed her belly sat hugging her ....it was going great. & one day ,she died ..i was at school when it happened & then she was taken away . It was sudden,she was energetic the day before. I didnot even get to see her. I didnt even cry... i was so numb . I didnot understand why she was not there ...nor what others meant by I'll never see her again . The pain set in later ,for a long time everyday i went out i would autometically look around to find her...there was no-one waiting for me. My friend had left me. Oh shit that’s sad.. That was the end of my dream of getting a pet one day. Yeah sure they don’t last long.. but when they’re there with you it’s the best feeling in the world Nope I'm not getting that much attached to anything again ...Once was enough ...the heartache was astounding. I'll probably get an aquarium ...a collection of fishes so that they are all a blur to me & i dont know them individually. My first three fish died after three days under my care.. I cried like a little bitch for hours Then when the other 7 died I was depressed af after each of their deaths It's weird ..but I guess I simply love & get attached too much. smh It's fine when i play & help others pets ..but i'm sleepless if i think about getting one of my own. Strangely I dont feel like that for most people. Same tbh I dont really care when most of them enter & leave my life..but animals have a way of breaking & entering & staying in my heart.

I feel for you and have some insight into how you are feeling. It is fear that is trapping you in this situation. But what is causing the fear ? Is the thought of being rejected and the emotional discomfort you will have to endure ? Is it a fear of not being able to continue a conversation ? Is it a fear that you think someone will recognise or discover some part of you you desperately want to keep hidden ?? Is it the fear that someone will realise you are terrified of being how you are now ? Beleive me, even the most outwardly confident person has fears, and a lot of those seemingly outwardly confident people have learnt the art of masking their fears so few people notice them. This is why there is the adage that bullies are really cowards. When I was a baby I tried walking. It was difficult and I had to try many times before I could even stand on my own. I have no idea how many times I tried and fell, but I persevered until I could stand and walk from one peice of furniture to another. This is how life is. If you are in a crowded room I bet you are not the only one feeling isolated, and I bet you are not the only one who doesnt want to feel isolated. Tell someone how you feel. Maybe you can see someone who looks as alone as you feel. Tell them, I hate these situations. I seem to spend the whole time wishing I wasnt here. What do all these people find to talk about with each other. You might be surprised how welcome your honesty is seized upon. Like that baby who kept falling down we can only keep trying. One action I took which changed me and my life was I enrolled in a public speaking course. I remember a surgeon being in the class, he stuttered and just about told the class his name, but my goodness, by the end of the course he was an oratory superman. Imagine going thru school, college, university, medical college, working night and day in a hospital setting, specialising in a medical subject to be a surgeon, and yet, be terrified to speak to people ... what hell he must have lived thru .... but, the moment he admitted his "problem" all the help and encouragement he needed was there for him. You can do it for yourself. Next time you are in a group setting speak to someone, Ask someone if they enjoy those functions, or do they hate them. You could be the lifesaver someone else is looking for,,,,,,,,,,

always have wings Don't think that way

Don't worry Hmm... Sorry

Its funny

we need someone to rap for that :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

@kimmy159 thank you. I'm always there for you too if you ever need me. I'd been stuck on what to write for a while, and got that out.

@sup thanks man!

@linktenkaichi Hi Link, I know how you feel. I suffer from depression as well. The truth behind depression is it sucks, its hard to take control and its difficult to heal. Here is some advice and maybe a good standard operating procedure fo you, I hope it helps. Identify what things spike your depression. Write them down. Trying to see what causes your depression to worsen will give you the start down the path to healing. Figure out, what you can do, if you can remove these 'spikers' from your life. Spikers are things, events or people that worsen your depression. The things that you can not remove from your life should be written on a separate list. The list of Spikers that can not be removed from your life may seem substantially large, but, in fact is less than you think. Pick one and try working on how to deal with it, if you can't figure it out, pick another. When you have troubles, try bringing it to someone you love and trust. As them to help figure it out. This can even be a doctor, therapist, friend or family member. Remember that you're strong. When you've solved an issue with a spiker, you will feel just a bit better. With depression success is like a shot of adrenaline. A slight warming sensation, a smile or even the acknowledgement within yourself. Repeat step 4. When you come down to the feeling "I give up", remember that you don't really give up. Your depression is suppressing your motivation and will make you feel as though you don't care. You actually do care, otherwise you wouldnt be depressed. Seek a therapists help if you struggle. There is nothing wrong with getting help. I spent 10+ years in therapy. I would be dead without it. Remember you're not alone. Everyone suffers with depression. Some deal with it easier than others. Message me if you want to talk. I like helping people, I like reminding people that they are worth more than they feel. I have love to give and loving others helps me with my depression. Never give up, resort to step 8 if you feel like giving up. I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL. I AM NOT A THERAPIST OR A DOCTOR OF ANY SORT. I AM HOWEVER A FELLOW HUMAN BEING THAT CARES ABOUT EVERYONE EQUALLY AND WILL DO EVERYTHING WITHIN MY ABILITIES AND POWER TO HELP SOMEONE. IF YOU ARE SUFFERING WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS PLEASE SPEAK TO A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL AND A SUICIDE HOTLINE AND MOST OF ALL TO THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU. THIS MESSAGE IS FOR EVERYONE ON PLANET EARTH.

@us-poet - I love the way u pen down ur thought, its perfectly moulded to the subject and its easy to understand.

@ms_e I'm sure you'll find the good. You're too awesome in all the ways that matter, for it to be bad for long. Of course I love it. It's a very touching and moving poem, that activates my empathy for you.

Awesome it is !

@us-poet Wow

@us-poet Yeahhh

@us-poet Nice one

@us-poet Loll

@saine123 sadness happens, and I'm just here to record those moments, so others may relate.

This hits a little too close to home - how many of us have over-dramatised a missing reply, how many of us could never really expel the doubt that the other person was not "just busy"?

@lazypotat I'm so sorry you feel this pain, but it's something that happens now and again, and I hope these little words will pick you up, because I know you're tough.