Something is happening
My skin is frozen
But I’m burning within
I think about why I’m by myself
All alone
Wouldn’t it be better to end it
Than to keep living
Don’t tell me I’m the last here
I won’t be left here
Cause out here
Nothing is clear
Once you disappear
Into this fear
There ain’t no coming back
You can’t separate or erase
This pain within me
I hope you all understand
Under this shadow of me
This fake simile
I’m breaking
I’m not ok
I don’t want to live
To waste another day
I don’t want to fall
To say I’ve lost it all
But I’ve hit this wall
And I’m shattering
Breaking bit by bit
There’s no coming back
Once I take this step
Why live forever
When the end is so much better

You say they aren’t real
But I know that
But they’re my demons
They haunt me
They haunt my sleep
They haunt my mind
To me they’re real
I’ll pray that I’ll heal
Hoping that the gods are real
That maybe I can feel
That maybe they aren’t real
Maybe they’re just in my head
Maybe my monsters aren’t real
Maybe I don’t need my weapon
I just need a shot of courage
I know I’m unstable
I won’t try and say that I’m ok
I won’t get angry
I won’t be discouraged
I just want it to be over
I’m tired of the battle
I’m tired of the war
I’m tired of them
Being real to me

I see your need
I jump to fill it
I smile at you
While I’m slowly
Drowning inside
All alone
But you can’t see past my smile
You can’t see my pain.
It’s all hidden from view
Just so I won’t make
You sad.
A part of me
Wishes that you’d
Consider me
What I need
See past this mask
At what I need
What I crave
Just meet me
Part way
And please me
Like I please you

Commission for @Sassygirl . I am pleased to post this up for you.

I sit crying
Cause of all the hurt
Feeling overwhelmed
Unloved and unwanted
When my phone a rings
And vibrates
Demanding my attention
When I answer
You’re voice cuts
Across the connection
Casting me a lifeline
To draw me back
Keep me from drowning
It’s amazing what
An “Are you Okay?”
Can do
I set down my blades
And let you wrap me in
The warmth of your words
Your soothing affection
You draw me back
To your embrace
And remind me
That despite life’s pace
I’ll be ok

This was written for one of my closest and dearest friends @Bees. I hope you love this girl.

I set into the woods
Sad and depressed
Seeking solace
And strength
To try and refind myself
As I wandered aimlessly
Amongst the dark trees
Suddenly you appeared
With Raven hair
Dark penetrating stare
A self assured smile
And a hand placed upon a cocked hip.
Your radiant smile lifted my spirits
And your touch set my skin ablaze
You pulled my sorrow
From my soul
And filled me with your
Delight instead
All that night
With tender caresses
And sensual kisses
Longing sighs
And pleasured.....
You drew me deep
You made me whole
And filled my soul
When I left that wood
I was no longer alone
But hand and hand
With you

This one is dedicated to m Goddess. @NiaRox
I love you and you’re so amazing I hope this was everything you wanted

I have met a special soul
One that is so divine
We fill each other
To overflowing
With our very essence
It’s like we’ve known
Each other forever
Like we’re sisters
Or maybe long time lovers

Our souls cry out
To each other
Despite the distance
Within our hearts
We started a journey
One in which
We shall mirror each other
For now and forever
For eternity
What are you
But that which completes me

This is for My goddess @NiaRox. You know all you’ve ever done for me and I love you.

Life has been so messed up
No one can be my baby
How can anyone love me
If all I can do is hate myself
I’m a mess, I’m broken
I can’t trust no one
I’m a hater I’m a loser
I’m obsessive
I’m embarrassing
How could you want
What isn’t lovable
I’m fucked up
Beyond reality
I’m impulsive
I’m reckless
I’m everything
That you shouldn’t want
So why would you love me
When I’m just a broken
Shattered mess
I’m good for nothing
But being used
You don’t love me
That’s okay I don’t either

I’ve been to dark places before
Nothing like this
I’m so cold, I’m hurting till
I’m numb
Just so empty of everything
My life is over
I can no longer see the light
Darkness take me
I can’t fight anymore
I’m pulled down
To the floor
By the gravity of my grief
I am lost my hope is gone
I don’t know what’s true anymore
I’m all alone
And I can’t find my direction
Is there another day
Past this night
I don’t see how
I can’t even rise from the floor
I can’t even take a breath
for this weight on my chest
I can’t look ahead
It’s too much for me to take
Looking forward
Will only cause me to break
I’m just trapped here
In this Dark Misery

Of rainy nights
We do tell
Are good for much
Cuddling snuggling
Kisses and touches
Of love making
Of the sweetest kind
Being together
Celebrating life
To each their own
Divine lines

A commission piece for @DennisJM. If you’d like one dm me I’ll see what I can do. Just tell me what you’d like and I’ll try and make it work. Just no promises on time frame rl tends to be busy.

@Rissa_TheBest hey girl love the tunes. Been way too long since I’ve seen you. Chin up sad girl. Things will get better

@LilyRose This will probably open me up to more fire but fine here I go anyway. Lily yes I used a fake face. Yes I had a lapse of judgement with one person and I stopped when asked after a few lines. No further than second base. So as far as actual sexting goes not that far. I have apologized to said minor long before this.

Since you want to say I stole others work then please by all means show what I stole. You want to show other things why not that too

@Heisenbergh thanks I appreciate it

@LilyRose What’s real in your mind is real to you. Just because someone else can’t see it touch it know that it’s there doesn’t make them any less real to you.

@Sassygirl I’m just a simple writer you’re the amazing person that makes me more

@Sassygirl you’re the best girl

@Sassygirl I’m glad you like my writings

You say they aren’t real
But I know that
But they’re my demons
They haunt me
They haunt my sleep
They haunt my mind
To me they’re real
I’ll pray that I’ll heal
Hoping that the gods are real
That maybe I can feel
That maybe they aren’t real
Maybe they’re just in my head
Maybe my monsters aren’t real
Maybe I don’t need my weapon
I just need a shot of courage
I know I’m unstable
I won’t try and say that I’m ok
I won’t get angry
I won’t be discouraged
I just want it to be over
I’m tired of the battle
I’m tired of the war
I’m tired of them
Being real to me

@Rissa_TheBest best I can girl. Trying to make it one more day

@Rissa_TheBest Keep making progress girl. It’s truly sad when you can’t have what the heart wants despite the circumstances. I wish you the best and keep pushing forward.

@SoulBrother I know and I appreciate that. But this was posted a day ago.