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Something is happening
My skin is frozen
But I’m burning within
I think about why I’m by myself
All alone
Wouldn’t it be better to end it
Than to keep living
Don’t tell me I’m the last here
I won’t be left here
Cause out here
Nothing is clear
Once you disappear
Into this fear
There ain’t no coming back
You can’t separate or erase
This pain within me
I hope you all understand
Under this shadow of me
This fake simile
I’m breaking
I’m not ok
I don’t want to live
To waste another day
I don’t want to fall
To say I’ve lost it all
But I’ve hit this wall
And I’m shattering
Breaking bit by bit
There’s no coming back
Once I take this step
Why live forever
When the end is so much better

You say they aren’t real
But I know that
But they’re my demons
They haunt me
They haunt my sleep
They haunt my mind
To me they’re real
I’ll pray that I’ll heal
Hoping that the gods are real
That maybe I can feel
That maybe they aren’t real
Maybe they’re just in my head
Maybe my monsters aren’t real
Maybe I don’t need my weapon
I just need a shot of courage
I know I’m unstable
I won’t try and say that I’m ok
I won’t get angry
I won’t be discouraged
I just want it to be over
I’m tired of the battle
I’m tired of the war
I’m tired of them
Being real to me

I see your need
I jump to fill it
I smile at you
While I’m slowly
Drowning inside
All alone
But you can’t see past my smile
You can’t see my pain.
It’s all hidden from view
Just so I won’t make
You sad.
A part of me
Wishes that you’d
Consider me
What I need
See past this mask
At what I need
What I crave
Just meet me
Part way
And please me
Like I please you

Commission for @Sassygirl . I am pleased to post this up for you.

I sit crying
Cause of all the hurt
Feeling overwhelmed
Unloved and unwanted
When my phone a rings
And vibrates
Demanding my attention
When I answer
You’re voice cuts
Across the connection
Casting me a lifeline
To draw me back
Keep me from drowning
It’s amazing what
An “Are you Okay?”
Can do
I set down my blades
And let you wrap me in
The warmth of your words
Your soothing affection
You draw me back
To your embrace
And remind me
That despite life’s pace
I’ll be ok

This was written for one of my closest and dearest friends @Bees. I hope you love this girl.

I set into the woods
Sad and depressed
Seeking solace
And strength
To try and refind myself
As I wandered aimlessly
Amongst the dark trees
Suddenly you appeared
With Raven hair
Dark penetrating stare
A self assured smile
And a hand placed upon a cocked hip.
Your radiant smile lifted my spirits
And your touch set my skin ablaze
You pulled my sorrow
From my soul
And filled me with your
Delight instead
All that night
With tender caresses
And sensual kisses
Longing sighs
And pleasured.....
You drew me deep
You made me whole
And filled my soul
When I left that wood
I was no longer alone
But hand and hand
With you

This one is dedicated to m Goddess. @NiaRox
I love you and you’re so amazing I hope this was everything you wanted

I have met a special soul
One that is so divine
We fill each other
To overflowing
With our very essence
It’s like we’ve known
Each other forever
Like we’re sisters
Or maybe long time lovers

Our souls cry out
To each other
Despite the distance
Within our hearts
We started a journey
One in which
We shall mirror each other
For now and forever
For eternity
What are you
But that which completes me

This is for My goddess @NiaRox. You know all you’ve ever done for me and I love you.

Life has been so messed up
No one can be my baby
How can anyone love me
If all I can do is hate myself
I’m a mess, I’m broken
I can’t trust no one
I’m a hater I’m a loser
I’m obsessive
I’m embarrassing
How could you want
What isn’t lovable
I’m fucked up
Beyond reality
I’m impulsive
I’m reckless
I’m everything
That you shouldn’t want
So why would you love me
When I’m just a broken
Shattered mess
I’m good for nothing
But being used
You don’t love me
That’s okay I don’t either

I’ve been to dark places before
Nothing like this
I’m so cold, I’m hurting till
I’m numb
Just so empty of everything
My life is over
I can no longer see the light
Darkness take me
I can’t fight anymore
I’m pulled down
To the floor
By the gravity of my grief
I am lost my hope is gone
I don’t know what’s true anymore
I’m all alone
And I can’t find my direction
Is there another day
Past this night
I don’t see how
I can’t even rise from the floor
I can’t even take a breath
for this weight on my chest
I can’t look ahead
It’s too much for me to take
Looking forward
Will only cause me to break
I’m just trapped here
In this Dark Misery

Of rainy nights
We do tell
Are good for much
Cuddling snuggling
Kisses and touches
Of love making
Of the sweetest kind
Being together
Celebrating life
To each their own
Divine lines

A commission piece for @DennisJM. If you’d like one dm me I’ll see what I can do. Just tell me what you’d like and I’ll try and make it work. Just no promises on time frame rl tends to be busy.

@Rissa_TheBest hey girl love the tunes. Been way too long since I’ve seen you. Chin up sad girl. Things will get better

Just let me walk away
Disappear into these flames
Let me turn to ash
Be reborn in this fire
Become something new
We just can’t be together
Let me burn forever
In this fire
From our desire
Let the heat
Wash away your pain
Be forged into
Something new
Just let me burn
Become nothing
Not even
A cherished memory
I just want to fall away
Drift away
To shed this pain
Become something new
To burn away
All that I am
Just set me ablaze
And walk away

Alright I was asked to write a poem for a friend. So got me to thinking. If you want I’ll take on commissions just tell me what you want and I’ll do my best. No promises on time frame rl tends to be busy for me. So if you’re interested just dm me and I’ll do my best for you. No I’m not asking for payment just no I’ll send you the poem back in a dm and I’ll post it tagging you.

@Rissa_TheBest Keep making progress girl. It’s truly sad when you can’t have what the heart wants despite the circumstances. I wish you the best and keep pushing forward.

I’m gonna stand by you
Take my hands
I’m here for you
With me you’ll never be alone
If you’re broken
That’s ok
I’m broken too
See my scars
I’ve been hurt like you
I know your pain
Can you feel mine
I see the tears
Burning in your eyes
Lean on me
While you cry
You can use my eyes
I’ll keep you steady
And if you fall
I’ll be on my knees next to you
And my tears will flow with yours
Baby I’m going to stay with you
We’ll fly to heaven,
Or walk through Hell
But nothing will break us
Separate us I’m going to stay with you
Till time ends and begins again
You’ll always have me
By your side
More faithful than a shadow
More constant than the North Star
I’m going to stand by you

I’ve returned. This is dedicated to @Braxton18. I love you

@fassett I write my feelings out. It’s how I cope.

@Sassygirl Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate them.

@Karenluvsjesus Thank you for your input. But since again it’s hateful please next time just don’t respond. No one asked for your input. In fact you’ve been asked to refrain. So please just don’t respond. Go seek your attention elsewhere where maybe you’re particular talents would be appreciated.

@Karenluvsjesus And btw since I practice Wicca I’m not that concerned with what Jesus does and doesn’t like. It’s irrelevant to me if he likes me or not. Pretty sure he’d dislike me for simply practicing my beliefs

Send me away
Wrapped in lighting
Into the mouth of the unknown
Let me crash in a peal of thunder
So my cry of pain
Goes unheard
Call me a sinner
Never a saint
Call me the worst
Never a favorite
I’ve lost my life
And a friend
You say you love me
Just tell me it’s over
Haven’t you figured out
Nothing lasts forever
I can’t change my ways
Gods knows I’ve tried
Just let me go
Make a better tomorrow
Send me away
In a lightning burst
Turn me to ashes
So you can heal
Relearn to feel
Just tell me it’s over

@Sassygirl Maybe that’s true but I don’t see it.