@Yeah-I-guess
I can relate with that, my 1st ever relationship was very toxic and took me 5 good years to get over it, but don't lose hope, it's possible to get over it! Yes, I won't lie, scars will remain there, but there's someone respectful and good for you out there, all you gotta do is keep looking and never give up, everyone deserves to be happy you are no exception.
But remember, don't do this "adventure" alone, rely on your friends, family and everyone that wants to help, you don't have to do it alone, I'm free to chat whenever you need advice! Cheers and hope to see you chin up soon :)