Look like, last night when I was tryin to go to bed, I thought about like my whole deal. Like about my body and for those who dont know me I HATE my body... but I just got into a really bad space yesterday and Ig I thought about how much I really rely on some of yall and how I wish I could hang out whenever so that at times like that then I'll have someone to lean on ya'know? I dunno it just kinda brought back a lotta old, bad memories so I just wanted to say thanks to all those who have been so kind and compassionate to me

https://docs.google.com/document/d/17lHQ7KOQeFl1-kNSkVA1ufVXWKWxVirlYAwQLkMM6_g/edit?usp=sharing

Prob getting over my ex, they psychologically abused me and I! Still kinda ducked up from it, reading dms between me and then is like the same feeling you get when you're trying to tell the horror movie victim not to go down into the basement even tho you know that that won't change what they do, like when I was finally able to break away (with the help of some encouragement) I drank the night away

Love to all night-night~

Do you ever get those moments when you're really excited because you're talking to someone you like, really really like and then they have to go and everything kinda stills too suddenly? Like the world's slowed down and all you can really do is wait for them to come back or for something to grab your attention or whatever? I know this is a weird question I just felt like talking about it I guess...

Honestly I've never really been one for ambition or dreams sadly, but I do hope one day to be of use to people

@nightshifter I just... I didnt see this coming at all. I won't say for you to say because no matter how I might try to phrase it it'd be for my own 'benefit' or rather a misguided form of extortion and you're too great for me to ask anything of you and likee youve been here for me since the beginning... even back when I was on banter and that was AGES ago. I know everyone will miss you ---I do already--- and if you ever decide to pop in even if its just for a lil bit be sure to message us; good luck hun and may the westering wind blow ever on your sails, godspeed you angel

anyone wanna chat? Im kinda bored rn and I want sumthn to take my mind off of my allergies. No lewdery please and no, I'm not looking for a bf

@SunshineF that cat looks angry af lolllll

@Anastasia-Smith I had wanted to be a Paleontologist from seeing the Jurassic Park movies, Ig I might've just wanted to have a Trex living in my back yard xD

I want to be loaded up with novacain and then burned on a pyre under a beautiful night sky

@Shadow thanks, Im just happy I was able to put this out somewhere, helps me feel less trapped in my brain

Have any of yall ever gotten'attached' to someone online? like you're reallly into them-not pure libido but yaknow-I used to have that problem a lot in the past but I thought that it was gone but recently I met an old friend that I hadnt seen in ages. I used to have a weird crush thing on them but I never said anything and that was a long time ago, well they came back and those feelings are resurfacing and everything's getting so complex and Im worried that I;ll get really giddy sometime and gush out to them and then make things awkward between us, I dont want her to leave me so Im scared, I dont want my emotions to take over and make me make some dumb move or whatever when Im not in my right mind and ruin it all. To make things even more confusing, they recently told me how they like someone else online and ofc I dont want that to fall apart, her happiness is way more important to me than my own but it still... stings I guess. I dunno my stomach feels like its churning and my head feels all aloof.. I cant think straight.

nope very rarely am I actually laughing when I say 'lol'

@Kina-B ooooooffff! try some tea

@Kina-B ouch I hate those

@Kina-B sick? :<

@Kina-B hope it aint bad at least

@its-sam I know that you cant see it cuz it aint in it lol Im just used to randos adding me and then asking for nudes and not understanding why I dont wanna share them

@Kina-B hows you? :3 other than bored ofc