@wildwallflower
I think people seek out meaning in everything we do because we love to make simple things being complex ,we overthink as well..
Why life is surviving than living ? Life is not just for living; most of the time it is survival of the fittest that makes it worth living..
You are great Catsai, Never compare yourself with others for we are all different and unique, and also be thankful for every situation whatever it may bring be it good or bad such is still a blessing..