@Indrid-Cold
When I said I'm a weird human I meant that I can go from 8 to 80 in an instant...
As in being super cold / a stranger towards someone and doing a lot/all I can for someone. That is my defense, but as soon as I let them down it just comes in rushing in. That is why I feel i'm weird, cuz of how the switch can be flipped.
Then again, since I feel life is kinda lacking without "a loved one" then I can understand why the switch is easily flipped, since the force needed to make it flip is so big that when it does, there's not much dosing, it goes all the way...
I have no idea if it made any sense :joy:
Regarding texting and the feeling after the text mine is slightly different... My fear is the "seen at xx:xx" or the cold and bashing reply, that's the fear, cuz before the urge you still think, wonder and believe "maybe she is struggling as much as I am" and after u send the text, that little bit of hope can be eradicated!