I guess I need to get it out of my chest

[Soulsreacher]

I just found out after a year that my bf writes to E.scort and s.ex workers for the adrenaline rush of doing something ilecit. I always had relationships that failed me, I had a gambling addict, I have been betrayed on so many levels in my life...He was different though. He says it's the same reason why he drives way too fast with his motorbike at times, or why he goes to the shooting range. He is in the military but he does nothing at all all day long. He's frustrated. I got that part. And I'm so sorry. But my istinct's always right and I asked him so many times if he was talking to somebody else. I always believed him, I trusted him so much. I'd defend him always. But he lied...he lied bc he felt worthless and ashamed. Bc he had everything. I'm so open mentally and sexually and therefore it's even more difficult to accept. I don't blame him for his actions, for the need for more stimuli, even if extreme. I can understand. I blame him for the lies.

[TheRisingSun]

@Kathysh Some people always try to find someone better, they think the grass is greener somewhere else. One day they'll end up alone in a desert.

Loyalty seems to be a thing of the past, everyone i know has divorced.
Except the old generation, born before 1950, they still knew the value of having a partner for life.

[A Former User]

@Soulsreacher

Let him fúck off.

It's a new beginning, be happy.

:)