Jesus was a sound guy, I think a lot of the stuff that was done in his name in the centuries that followed might tend to put people off Christianity generally. Likewise most other religions too, their initials teachings are of good value but often skewed for negative purposes. Talking/discussing is different to preaching but not everyone gets that and are therefore defensive about trying to be converted
It's modern day ideals based on old world tradition of what a relationship should be that is the trap. I agree with Nick you need time to grow mentally to know what you want, and even once you know that you need to find a person that has the same ideals. Extensive communication is key which is ironically difficult for an online relationship to uphold. Sounds like frustration for the sake of a label
Forgive me if I offend anyone, I am making this post to be educated as much as anything else because I am accepting of all people as long as they aren't an asshole.
So last night I was watching this random dating show on TV and there were these two homosexual black guys on there who when asked what they were looking for both said that they only date "black or brown" people. I understand, that is a preference, people have different preferences, however I can't help but feeling that if a white person were to be in the same position and say "I only date white people" that would be considered to be racist in some fashion; why is that?
I personally have no preference either way however I would say my personal preference is that I am not physically attracted to most middle eastern men, I won't say all because who knows I haven't seen them all, but generally Indians and such do nothing for me. I'm not gonna say "does that make me a racist" because I'd happily be friends with people of all colours and creeds... But why is it that white people aren't allowed to outwardly include race as part of their preferences? Are all "preferences" offensive in some way and why are some acceptable and others not? For example a man who says he like girls with big boobs could be seen as a misogynist yet I see soooo many girls these days who say "get lost if you're under 5ft8" which seems to be fine?! Is it wrong to assume you won't be attracted to someone based on factors impossible for them to change? Help me out here people I'm confused.
Went through similar thing as well, I think a lot do, I'm glad you've got to a place where you are happy and healthy! You look the best now for sure, absolute 
Riding a horse off into the sunset with an acid tab on my tongue never to be seen again. Ideally...
Go easy on me it's my first topic lol
This can be a complicated issue, so to any doctors out there know that I am not disrespecting you or complaining about big pharma (shit system though isn't it)
Anyway, I had a rough year of health last year, I've always had bad anxiety which often focuses on my health and I was in and out of the doctors every week with one thing or another, worst being an immuno comprising disease that landed me in hospital. I was given lots of meds for lots of different things including antidepressants which just made me wanna kill myself tbh.
Point is this year I feel 100 times more human because I stopped going to the docs, I changed my diet, started taking probiotics and a herbal mix from my local herbalist, as well as using CBD flowers for my anxiety.
Not saying modern medicine doesn't have it uses but I'd be interested to hear if anyone else has any success stories about the ancient healing power of plants!
@Lazz I hear you and I'm with you, I just meant because of the nuances of body language I think text based relationships struggle more with confusion and paranoia. I'm sure they can work, though perhaps not forever, deep down everyone craves human contact and limiting that for the sake of someone you can't or won't see for a very long time seems silly to me. Each their own though every relationship is different ofc
@Mickeyyyyy It's really high and so am I, should be fine lol
@Mickeyyyyy Well let's say I ride off a cliff, that should do it 
Jesus was a sound guy, I think a lot of the stuff that was done in his name in the centuries that followed might tend to put people off Christianity generally. Likewise most other religions too, their initials teachings are of good value but often skewed for negative purposes. Talking/discussing is different to preaching but not everyone gets that and are therefore defensive about trying to be converted
BMTH and MSI rock and so do you! I feel like any reply I write would not be as extensive or useful as I'd want it to be, but I relate and empathize with you a great deal. I've suffered from ptsd among other things and was often invalidated by the people around me and it sucks. Don't worry about trying to be "normal" just be you, you'll get where you wanna be eventually. Meditation helped me a lot. Here if u ever wanna chat, stay strong 
Lots are good but the best anime is Durarara!! It just is.
Went through similar thing as well, I think a lot do, I'm glad you've got to a place where you are happy and healthy! You look the best now for sure, absolute
@mindigh You clearly haven't heard of female empowerment
Forgive me if I offend anyone, I am making this post to be educated as much as anything else because I am accepting of all people as long as they aren't an asshole.
So last night I was watching this random dating show on TV and there were these two homosexual black guys on there who when asked what they were looking for both said that they only date "black or brown" people. I understand, that is a preference, people have different preferences, however I can't help but feeling that if a white person were to be in the same position and say "I only date white people" that would be considered to be racist in some fashion; why is that?
I personally have no preference either way however I would say my personal preference is that I am not physically attracted to most middle eastern men, I won't say all because who knows I haven't seen them all, but generally Indians and such do nothing for me. I'm not gonna say "does that make me a racist" because I'd happily be friends with people of all colours and creeds... But why is it that white people aren't allowed to outwardly include race as part of their preferences? Are all "preferences" offensive in some way and why are some acceptable and others not? For example a man who says he like girls with big boobs could be seen as a misogynist yet I see soooo many girls these days who say "get lost if you're under 5ft8" which seems to be fine?! Is it wrong to assume you won't be attracted to someone based on factors impossible for them to change? Help me out here people I'm confused.
Buy stables, fill them with horses, spend whatever remains on weed. But like I'd give lessons to kids or something, I'm not completely selfish, just money never goes as far as you'd expect these days