@Wicked_ can i come along? Sounds idyllic! I know some perfect mountains, takes your breath away, standing at the foot of them makes you realise how insignificant you are, looking out from the top of them makes you feel so privileged
@mikeJB nothing lasts forever unless you're really lucky in your legacy will there are a few people we are still talking about today that left their mark on this world a few thousand years ago, however that's a pretty small number considering the entire human populations since it has been on Earth I don't know what that figure is but it's quite large.
I wish you well in your endeavor and I hope you succeed but even mountains crumble and disappear into the sea. And the sea evaporates. Diamonds might last in extremely long time however what day are made from didn't last that long and I have really no expectations that the diamonds themselves will stay diamonds for that long either.
As far as I know the only thing is change change is constant everything changes always doesn't matter what given the right amount of time it changes.
Ponder this thought 679 billion light years could pass for the blink of an eye of a different entity and I do not mean that takes that entity 679 billion light years for his eyelid to open and close what I mean is if you live for say 999 quadrillion light to the hundredth power years, 679 billion light years is nothing nothing even to consider look for a human being your never even going to live long enough to see 150.
Now how long has the Earth been here?
the Earth itself as well as the sun and all the stars you can see are not going to last forever,so I guess my point and all this rambling is I wish you well good luck with your quest don't let it drive you insane.
one more thing ill add, children watch Marvel comics movies. they look for Spiderman and Iron Man and Superman and look around for superheroes to revere. they didnt even realize they had one walking amongst them all along. not the Black Panther, but the BLACK MAMBA
@mikeJB I'm sure you will be Mike. I have a friend who's gone through something similar. Her fiance actually died in a car crash. She was devastated they've been dating for almost 10 years but she didnt save his ashes. I would not discredit their love for each other though.
@Angel94647 He dropped almost all of your stuff off, quickly. That's a pretty clear and strong gesture. If he has kept some of your things like DVDs he could have not realised, he may have changed so much he wanted them for himself, or may be keeping them so that that link is still there as power over you - unfortunately that is the sort of thing people do when then they break up with others and don't genuinely care any more but think they might want to backtrack later, it gives them an excuse. Message him today and say that if you have broken up (as he says you have) you'll need the rest of your things back asap. It is simple, fair, and reasonable - leaving things longer will only make it more painful. Doing this will also open the dialogue you want.
He didn't ask what was going on when you went to the hospital and you still need other people to spell it out? His reply seems like polite detachment but I bet at least 9 in 10 of your friends would have shown real concern and asked properly what was wrong along with a lot of strangers too. And he couldn't. That should tell you all you need to know. He has ignored you. Rejected your calls. The guy may have issues but HE DOES NOT WANT TO KNOW.
Perhaps he hasn't changed his relationship status because although he has made the decision it is hard for him, or perhaps (more likely) he simply is waiting for you to do it so that he can feel less guilty. Either way it doesn't matter! This guy has finished with you and is making no effort to reach out! He didn't even let you pick your things up yourself, just emptied his life/home of you and your property and fucked off leaving you lost! Seriously, if he cared at all he would still be checking up on you. Instead he's got you on the end of a string thinking of him constantly and reading into signs which don't mean a thing next to his ACTIONS.
I can tell your a good and caring person. Everybody fucks up but seriously, you deserve better treatment than this. You need to see that, and if he can't see that then it is his loss not yours. He sure is no "king" - after the way he has been treating you since he broke from you he is the one who would be lucky to receive a second chance from you. Don't get confused and forget that.