First let me say I'm sorry ,you had to come to such a position.
I donot envy your position, dear.
Second ,I will say this I have been in war of heart or the mind myself .
I have been asked sometimes by few of my very good friends to be their significant other ,for romace..
...& let me tell you it sucks ...it sucks to say no
..it sucks to break the heart of your best friends ..
Their eyes to turn down & their hopeful smiles to turn despondent
..to see tears at the edges of their beautiful eyes
...to hear their voice break as they shakily say "No problem ..you are my best friend ,you know ? ..This changes nothing (it does...)"
..it sucks to choose success over companionship.
..It sucks because you know you two could be great ,that you two could be happy forever ...that you two could have a wonderful family & kids ...
The whole American Dream.
I have cried sometimes over the lost opportunities ..the lost paths of my life ..
I have howled in sadness at what could have been ,felt like my heart was breaking apart ...
But in the end , i have chosen to forge on ahead , Once After certain events... I made a promise to myself years ago that I will let nothing distract me from Achieving Greatness . To not veer away from my roadmap of success .
..I have not broken it.
No matter the temptation ... not even when I felt i was dying in heartache
...Success requires Sacrifice.
I will follow my path through....i have made my choice.
Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind.
And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.
But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
You are an adult (at least i think you are ) .
The choices & consequences are yours.
I have made my choice ,i hope i can live with them.
Choose what you believe will make you happy in life.(unless you made a similar vow to mine..)
I pray that yours lead you to happiness.