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Updates and current situation - Things got better, then worse
So it's been just about two months now. Again thank you for all the support with my very first post. A lot of things happened since then... Let me fill you in.
So I started getting some friends here after my first post. You helped me a great lot, and I got connected though other media as well - Including Discord. And you guys really made me happy. I finally realised what a bit of friendship is worth, and you were there for me.
A couple of weeks later, suddendly, my ex wants me back again. Telling me he misses the things we used to do and the attention and everything. I tell him that I know what he wants. He wants all that comes with a relationship, just except the commitment and the title. And I can't devote all my time and attention to someone who can't love me back. I told him this.
He showed up after school at some point. The 6'th of January to be precise. We talked, we went to a café and got milkshakes, talking all of this out. He wanted me back, he got a bit too close for my comfort.
He kissed me.
I told him that it felt wrong. I told him that I wouldn't promise him anything. I told him I didn't know what I wanted. I told him I didn't want to go back to what we had before.
Guess communication wasn't right.
Next day I was texting a new friend... And we got along really well. Got really close and honestly? I felt interested in him, and he seemed interested in me too. We kept on. At night, we'd call together and talk.
But then of course, new shit was about to happen. My ex had logged onto my discord. He had been reading through all the messages been sent throughout the day, everything. He went as far as to calling the person I was talking to, via my discord, talking to him about all this. Then called me, about 15 times at around 3 am, then, when I finally picked up, he called me out for all of this, yelling at me, saying he had come back to help me and be there for me. I got furious. But I was so sad at the same time all I said was: "I can't forgive you for this. If you can't keep yourself off of my social media, even when were not together, I can't trust you in a relationship. I made no promises for you, and I owe you nothing" I just ended up hanging up and I haven't spoken to him again.This turned out to be my closure. I finally realised that was never going to get better. Besides, I had found a new love interest... Who apparently loves me back. So I am happy now. Things are on a whole different scale than before. I realised how much I was missing before...
Now comes a new problem.... It is a distance relationship
Not that either of us find it a problem, we believe we can make it work.
Problem is my parents. Or, mostly my mom.
She literally told me to "not fall in love with (person)" And that a distance relationship never works and all of that... She went as far as saying, directly to me that "let's imagen you were in a distance relationship for, let's say, three years. One of you would end up cheating". And she just got me annoyed at this point with her lack of support. But I am also terrified that she may work against us and make it difficult.
But it really shouldn't be her decision to make though, should it?
She shouldn't have any saying in it?I don't know what to do now. I thought things were so much better, then it dropped again...
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RE: All things must pass
@Scottish thank you for being nice to me, you really cheered me up. I wish you only the best ^^
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RE: Tired of people's BS TWS phonies Hyde is a liar
So, do you feel better now? Because whatever "analysis" you may think that you've made, apparently has some flaws. Now I've been writing with Hyde for a good amount of time. To me, the mistakes makes perfect sense. The choice of words to the Grammer, which are not a typical choice for an American or an English person. There are loads of classic mistakes for one who has English as their second language.
Whatever point you're trying to prove is wrong. He IS the actual Hyde. No matter what you've think you've called out. Now, I know this because I've been talking to him a while and gotten more than enough proof but seriously.. Why do you want to waste your time like this?
You say you're calling BS, well I am calling yours.
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RE: Updates and current situation - Things got better, then worse
@Matt_Aranha To be honest, yes, I am afraid so. I can't move away at the moment though because of studies. But also from what I have learned, growing up and watching my parents relationship, is that I apparently commit on a whole other way than they do. But she sadly never have been able to understand my mind works differently ... And my dad is kind of just, standing by, passively.
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An update very much later
Hi again.
It has been literally forever since I last logged on, especially because my IP had been banned for a while for unknown reasons. But today I decided to attempt logging on and then I thought you guys deserve an update.My first post on here was a call for help. I was in desperate need of a form of encouragement after a messy breakup. Later there have been extra details emerging about that previous relationship that I once left out. One being a week after the first breakup where my ex at the time convinced my parents to come home with me, and at night he would then force himself upon me, and how he would "give my current boyfriend permission to have me".
But all of that is years ago now. And for reasons related to that, but also unrelated, I am now regularly attending therapy.
I am soon graduating from the gymnasium that I attend, and I hope to take a bachelor and perhaps a masters in animation or concept art or simular. If everything goes well, I will be moving to the States to study and move in with my boyfriend, with whom I will have 2 years anniversary next week! Yay!
Our relationship has been tough of course, but with little resistance from my parents, which goes radically against my original expectations. Given how much my mum has worked against my prior relationships. In fact after the first time he visited in summer of last year, they have been incredibly supportive and loving of him! They have taken us places, cooked all kinds of traditional danish food he has never tasted, and suggested places for us to go and see. Heck, Christmas last year my boyfriend arranged with my mum to travel here for a surprise visit during the entire holiday! And even with covid restrictions, we still managed to have a lot of fun while he got a taste of our traditions here at home.Most things have brightened up since my last couple of posts. I am still struggling with things. I have quite a substacial amount of symptoms for mental stuff... Whether it be depression or ADHD or anxiety.. They're all there, making things harder. But I hope that I will recieve tools to work with this, once my therapy sessions are over, despite there probably not being an actual diagnosis.
Thank you for reading, and sorry for the rant! :)
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Boredom strikes
I've been restless most of the day and night, and I am insanely bored ... Tell me a joke, ask me something, tell me something, like a random or dumb fact, just anything.
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RE: What do you hate most about christmas?
If you don't like christmas songs, I have an anti-christmas song you might enjoy, if you like rock music that is ... :)
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RE: What do you hate most about christmas?
@Hyde Search on youtube "this christmas" by Set It Off
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RE: Boredom strikes
@kh1123 Cookies, Kiwis and salty liquorice - Although it's not good for me lol XD
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RE: What do you hate most about christmas?
@Hyde No problem! Always happy to share som anti-christmas spirit nyehehehe :)
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RE: What do you hate most about christmas?
@Hyde Ye - Also draw anime and manga a lot. Don't watch that much anymore tho...
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RE: Boredom strikes
@mikeJB Gotta tell you, I am not american? Also I was just searching for a bit of entertainment, seems like everyone else got that? But It's fine, I mean, you do you. You did fulfill my request and gave me something to read, so thank you for that
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RE: What do you hate most about christmas?
@Hyde I really would like to go there someday..
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RE: Boredom strikes
@mikeJB Already read, thank you very much - Also no one forced you to read or comment my post. So you could just go and be offended somewhere else, have a nice day ^^
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Thanks for support and help!
I am truly grateful for the people who commented on my first post, it really don't regret coming here with it, soooo many people comforted me I can't even handle it. :)
I just wanted to thank you all.
Please, stay this awesome. Because I feel like a lot of people needs it. Not just me :)Let me know if I should do any updates about what happens now. I really enjoyed my time here so far ^^
Thanks again~
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RE: Thanks for support and help!
@Akki8 It still makes me so happy, since people in general never were really nice to me. :)