Thank you for the peoples who stand behind me and appericated me so much and being friendly to me

I gonna leave the place with a smile because i know i don't hate anyone of you
it didn't matter who and what i was and what you was think about me the important thing is what you believed by heart
I felt to have a place where i could be myself and could relax from the work i had
I know you didn't believed me and others fought for me i am thankful to them by all my heart ! knowing there was peoples seeing me as a human and not as a celebrity ..it was a feeling i missed for a long time

I had peoples here i really liked even i could not proof myself to them some of you heard my recs some of you was just happy talking

whatever happens lately i am sorry...for staying there as a liar

Nat-chan , and all others who kept fighting for me arigatou so much !!!

loves from Japan,

Hideto Takarai 寶井 秀人

Arigatou/Thank you/ 有難うございます。

for being nice to me and accpeting me and being here for me when i am in need !
It's ever good to talk to someone and meet new friend / hearing about different storys and cultures ~

and a special thanks to NekoNat for being here ! ^___^

i appericate you all a lot !

I am happy i can call some of you my frineds

greetings hyde

I guess i write this cause someone was speaking to me because of my spellings

I don't realized that my english get wrong when i write fast / or and don't concentrate on it
even i only say ''Thank you'' in a right way i also mistake the sentence from that sometimes i wanted to say sorry for my english and my language i am not british neither american i am japanese but some japaneses can write better english as me and maybe better talking it i need hours to sing or speak my english in a right way so maybe i will be better by some training and help
i believe that my way of writing confuse some peoples i am really sorry for it
and i don't want to put my personaly problems in the foreground even it is maybe the reason why i am unconcentrated.. I promised to write correctly and i will do it for the one who i talked to

I don't shout out for help i just aplogized my mistakes and you who knows i talk about be sure i am myself i just dropped down all my trust in humans since a long time

greetings from Japan
Hyde

... They making a new topic ? Just some of them really are brainless i don't mind topics with good words inside and good talks but all this short topics for sex or naughty things are just stupid sometimes.

~

any requests ? since i draw it online with mouse & touchpad right now but black / white since colourblind.. I cant promise that it will be good !

Thank you for everything even i was to leave now all of the sudden
i readed up your messages and i really gonna cried i am thankful to peoples who appericate my talks and went missing me
I would miss you as well i was here for relaxing even i told around music links really my talk must being bad when she searched for my grammar mistakes and forcing in this way but i am not angry on her just deep down i am dissapointed about it
I trusted way to much in my life and really i am not strong to offer it i am living in a deep darkness and you're my friends my family all of you are my light
I hope i can see this light one more time...
so many lovely words even i never proofed me and i don't even want to because here i can be who and what i am
I am sure we will keep in touch on this and an other way
Thank you for brighten my way in so many ways

Arigatou watashi no yami wa itsumo hikari o terasu 私の闇はいつも光を照らす

even there are a lot of topica about it
right now i feel the same pain coming up from past
so feel free to talk to me about everything here or pm i gonna give addvice or at least i will try ~

greetings hyde

Hello and again

I had something in mind what naturaly are deeply in my soul
In my country (Japan) we really appericate starsigns and we going read characters out of starsigns
personaly i think that a starsign can also form a specialy character like it is said for me i am very picky and deep in emotions i know from my own thats absolutly right

but what is your starsign ? what you think about this theme? are you also seeing more as only a simple symble in it ? i mean starsigns are interessting like the universe to me ~
what starsigns you appericate ? wich you don't like? do you have problems with some peoples with a special starsign? or just you go along with everyone the same ? ~ I am a curious cookie :backhand_index_pointing_left: :dango:

HAPPY V - DAY

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@sarah_the_magpie Night owl and early bird...
I go sleep pretty late and wake up early ;D

First of all

I am Japanese and a man of honor (normaly)
I am sorry to DIV-san for my honorless movement

I can't live on with a big mistake i made and the Knowlendge that i lost DIV-san's trust
I was using an other account and wanted to help a friend who was saying she was ''IP banned'' even she wasn't i wanted to say it wasn't me and i destroyed a girl's dream because i ruined her chance of a new friendship with all of you because now her account is away
it never was my honest to close her account by moving on hers and she known i done it because i was talking to her at the same time on Dscord i am a man of honor but i was honorless and destroying a girls life isn't what my mother made me to she wanted me to be truthful and i can't live in the shame that i used it in the known that the mod's will see my moves i known it i am not stupid just stubborn and maybe ignorant i am sorry it isn't my secound account and never will be
HYDE is my real name and i normaly didn't used options wich kills my trust to others but i want to be open even i get a one last chance i didn't care anymore
moving over a site alone with the kknowing in mind she can't be here anymore makes me sad and honorless and i didn't deserve it to stay while she can't anymore i just wanted to say peoples i like and learnd to respect I done it as a friend for her but as a Japanese i can't live with it anymore

I am sorry for disrespect the rules and i am sorry for made you all believe i am a good guy my heart hurts and i only did it as a reason i can't tell i didn't even was drunken...so why i done? but surely to watch for her for a reason why the site didn't let her go here anymore
what wasn't a reason normaly to break rules and on a way i feel deep ashamed
i wasn't sleeping and now i need to let it out

I am sorry for made that step
even it sounds wrong for all of you i had a respectful reason to helping my friend but a honorless movement for here

see you one day again
now it is my time to go

in honorless ...and shameful feelings

HYDE

@Div I believe you !! ^^ i know u would not do without reason

@Div she told me her IP is bannend or she don't can go to the site on her PC and phone

why you got being banned? I am sure there would be a reason for it

HAPPY V - DAY

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@Hiimbored I care about you and all other humans

@snpem69 somehow you saying this and that how can it be bored and fun for you at the same time ?
I'm surprised :angel: :anguished_face:

@Bangtan-Hoe more then 1 time in my entire life and yes love is horrible but also it is one absolutely nice thing! even not always in a relationship also friendship is a way of love and defintfly i will never miss that feeling of love :)

@Hiimbored I followed you now
if you want we can also talk in dm but i gotta give you lessons when my headache is dying

@Hiimbored I gonna be your Japanese sensei whenever you want
Japanese lessons didn't cost me a lot of time