@wet-teri I am so sorry for your loss. Passing away of a parent is never easy. I am glad you are trying to become everything she expected you to be. We owe it to them. We are fortunate to have their memories with us. I know she must be an incredible person and proud to have a sun like you. May your parents rest in peace.
@Hyde tell me which star it is ?? Gives a sign of appreciation?? I never came across , may be made in Japan sorry only in Japan , arrives in land of rising sun, and I can say I do appreciate Japan and it's culture, I think by the blessing of Buddha , janpan became osho of zen !! A ruler sidhartha
The only one being able to answer that question is you. Maybe there are reasons in your life why you feel like so. Maybe there are none.
But I can tell you, that suffering means sharing in the lord's sacrificial love. Either by repairing for your own sins you are being lifted closer to heaven, or you might even be atoning for other people's sins. In any case it's a purification. So don't feel down about feeling down 😋. Start trusting, that He is guiding you closer to Himself!