@Alte Well Sir (or Madame) ... I already know the answer to this since I have been a Fool all of my life.....
So for me , I would have to go fool ... it's what I am , it's what I know , it's how I make situations become bearable for me and others.
@godessofpain also these feelings arent hurting anyone thankfully. The only person theyre hurting is myself, its tearing my head up its that level of i have no idea what to do