@Rissa_TheBest I know what you mean about God... he is the author of the world. Sometimes he makes decisions that put us through a lot but he always does it for the best reasons... don’t worry, you will be ok, just know He is with you and so am I. Who knows, you may come out of this being a better person.
One of my mum’s friends died from cancer a few months ago, I think she was in her thirties. Her daughter had told me she had cancer a while before and she worked at my school... I wish I had got to know her better. Her children are split up with foster families now, please pray for them. Their names are Olivia and Owen.
I am praying for you, stay strong. The Lord will be with you.