Posts made by xEchosVoice

I did them thank the goddesses. That was terrifying.

So I took my Geometry final (yes I'm only in Geometry I got bad math anxiety) and I scored a 64/100. Luckily my teacher is a goddess and will let me do corrections without it decreasing my grade. Can someone help me understand the questions better? I felt really good on some of them and now I'm just over here like AGHHHH. Thanks if you do the problems are below!

@Allison @Matt_Aranha Thanks I've already gotten an A and B on the two finals I took early and the next is optional but gotta raise my grade. Then you have one that's just a project and just yeahhh. Funnn...

Hey Everyone!
I know I haven't posted as much recently I'm just at the end of the year so I'm dealing with finals and making up as much work as possible to try and have a beautiful report card. If I don't reply within the next few days or week it's not because I'm done with this, I'm just really trying to focus. Hope you all understand thank you!
Love,
xEchosVoice

@pe7erpark3r Ah yeah well it's not a story so why use paragraphs? And don't believe in God but thankss

@Phaéris Always have been. Have a nice day.

@Phaéris I'll pass sweetheart.

@Phaéris Why would I play a game like this?

@xEchosVoice Maybe get to know her first then I date her me

No your not crazy I thought this to man

I'm sorry Phae..
If you need someone to talk to I'm here.

I can't marry someone I just met however, I can be good friends with them so weddings off, and I'm just going to enjoy making a new friend xD

@Ash005 I'm a woman hun xD but I'll take it

(TRIGGER WARNING) SELF-HARM/EATING DISORDERS/ADDICTION/SUICIDE/OTHER
Every recent thing I've posted is from 2018. I am working on a large updated piece for how I've progressed or relasped. Not sure when I'm gonna post it. I have finals coming up. Read with caution if you have PTSD.

Dear World,
We all have felt pain in our lives correct? Emotional and physical? If you haven't then you have yet to experience it. For those who have...we do stupid things when we are in pain. We have things we have regretted doing and wished that we had chosen a different way to make the pain go away. Some people turn to cutting. Some people turn to alcohol. Some people turn to drugs. Whatever we chose, we regret it. Those who are cutters feel ugly because of our scars, so we make more. Those who are alcoholics feel free when really they are trapping themselves. Those who are drug addicts feel happy when high, risk the chance of feeling the complete opposite. For every way to "cope" and escape reality, it's not really a way to cope. The more you do these things the more likely you are to lead to suicide. I have heard so many jokes about suicide. It angers me so much that everyone treats it like a small thing. It's not something small. Sure it's somewhat selfish, but we resorted to it because we felt like there was nothing left for us to live for in this world. So we kept all of our feelings inside and pushed everyone away. It's called depression. We lose interest in doing things we love, we become moody, always tired, forget how to cry, and don't know what a real smile is anymore. I haven't turned to alcohol or drugs. Instead, I turned to cutting and fasting. I could have done so many things correctly rather than digging down that hole. I always remember the past because of my scars. For the longest time, I would tell myself "No one will ever love me. I'm ugly. I have scars and I'm fat." I ended up becoming an anorexic because I was so desperate to fit in. I kept a smile on my face every day acting strong while at night I would cry myself to sleep. After a few months of barely skipping meals, I started to only eat dinner once a week for 6 months. How am I still alive? No clue honestly. Then people found out and I started eating again. Anorexia and trying to quit cutting was an ongoing battle for me. It would go on and off every few months until I finally started to get help. It was roughly about a few months when I started improving until I went back to cutting. I haven't been anorexic for a while which is an achievement, and I've been clean for one month. And if you're going through depression and you push others away, it will only take you farther down that hole. You have to talk to someone about it otherwise it will devour you making you feel miserable. And if a close friend tells on what you've done, don't be mad. They are only trying to protect you because they love you so fucking much. You should never ever do anything that harms your body. I wrote this to prevent people from doing these things because the price you pay afterward isn't a good one. You will feel so much better once you get help. It's much better to tell someone you trust and get help than to keep it inside.
Sincerely,
xEchosVoice

(TRIGGER WARNING) SUICIDE/SELF-HARM/OTHER THINGS
You have been warned. Dark and deep topics. If you have any PTSD proceed with caution.

What is life? We eat, drink, sleep, socialize, etc. I could go on for ages...who are we as human beings? What is our purpose? Were we born for something specific or just to exist and then die again? Who are we? Why were we created? Some say that this "God" created us, while others think differently. Some follow science and reason and think that we are evolved animals. The past? Humanity has done awful things in the past which they used to think was acceptable at the time. However, we still look back at the past and see the things we have done wrong or those that we've done right. In day to day life, when people are sad they'll talk to you about it. Every damn day, purely for the attention. But when they are truly sad they keep it inside, letting it rip them apart and slowly crumble. Everyone has a chapter that they don't read aloud. We let these pieces of our stories tear us apart until we slowly rot into a nobody. Then again we already think we are nobodies. Even if we aren't sad, we sure as hell aren't happy either. We always think that we are never good enough no matter what. We feel worthless, lonely, unloved, hateful, anxious, scared, etc. People tell you to be yourself and then they judge you. You create a mask, a fake, in order to be liked. Your scared that someone will someday take off that mask and then they will know the real you. Pain changes us. We change after we've gone through pain because we are bitter and hateful. We cannot forgive what happened to us. We try to help people not go through what we did, but it is difficult. Some people manage it better than others while other people become a stranger. At night we cry, but also go numb. We forget to feel, we become hollow inside. We fake a smile and say we are "okay" when inside we are dying of suffering. They say silence is the most powerful scream and it is. Have you ever cried so hard that you can't breathe and no noise comes out? That is pain. When you're about to kill yourself and you look at your reflection while your suffocating. Your face going from red to purple, the fear of facing Death himself. Then you stop because you don't want to go that slowly. You want a fast painless death because all you've ever had is pain. You lied to the doctors, family, and friends about how many times you've cut and tried to kill yourself. You say once, but it's too many times to count. You lose track of how hurt you are. You know you're broken, but you act fine anyway so people don't worry about you. But then there is one person who lifts you up and makes you feel happiness again. They make you have real feelings and emotions and you care about them. Those are your friends and boyfriend/girlfriend. They make you feel like you have a purpose in the world and that you belong. Sure, they will judge you, but your fine with them doing that because to all of you, your flaws and everything, are beautiful, and make you, you. You might get sad sometimes, but when you think about them and your adventures together, you remember why you're staying alive so you stay alive to protect them because they hold the keys to your guarded heart. Even when you do get sad again, you tell yourself you have to stay strong and pretend to be happy so that no one worries about you. Every strong person has their breaking point though. We brood about life and still wonder why we are alive. We wonder and pour out our insecurities that make us scared again. We can't always be happy though. You must have sadness in your life because pain is one of the main things that change you. I bring back my point again. Who are we? What do we do? And I have an answer. We are whoever we choose to be and we can have the confidence to be that person or not. We exist to live life to the fullest. You choose your paths of what happens. Yes, there are going to be mistakes, but that helps you move along in life showing you who you're meant to be. That is life.
-xEchosVoice

Hello, all thank you very much for checking out this post today. I am engaged to our lovely Queen @JESS and I invite you all to come to our Chili Cheese Fry Wedding which will be taking place and whenever I decide a date and then we will set off for our honeymoon. Her fans please don't murder me because she said yes. ;-; Mwah thank you lovelies!!!

To many dms what have I done 0-0

@Matt_Aranha Thank you

Jesus, I can't say anything without being like oh hey anxiety talking to people but yeah...now I'm just dying inside internally...someone help ;-;..I need practice at talking to people

just dm me i guess?