@jimmy1708 he most difficult thing I ever did is walk out of a relationship which could have ruined my life.
A little about the situation :-
It was an love marriage scenario where I was talking to girl for around few months.
She was good looking and sweet.
But… She was self centered, gold digger and materialistic. She said yes to me because she wanted to relocate to my city as it had the career opportunity she was looking for.
She used to say, “whatever you have is mine and whatever I have is mine too”
I used to take it lightly but started realizing that she was serious when she she said few more times while having a serious conversation.
She used to manipulate me to do things according to her wish and agree to things related to future.
On frequent basis she used to demand things from me. And used to cry for money.
In that 2 months duration I used to feel bad internally and was continuously thinking how I will manage in future.
I couldn't say anything because I had developed feelings for her. On the other hand I was just some guy she was going to marry.
Moreover, our parents had difference of opinions making things worse
So, keeping my self strong I told her that we don't seem to be an ideal match. Wished her best for future and goodbye.
I am still gathering myself after this decision. Life has been peaceful now but it seems to be empty.
The most difficult thing was not breaking the relationship with the girl for whom I had developed feeling. It was the phase after it, knowing the loneliness it caused.
It was a struggle everyday not to revert the decision and crawling back to her to build the relationship again.
On several occasions I thought of calling her up and fix things.
I had mood swings giving me a very hollow and empty feeling.
I had hit all time low putting me in depression, affecting my work and everything around me.
I miss her sometimes and think how different things would have been if she had not being the way she was.
Nevertheless, I am happy that I could separate myself from the people who were going to bring me down.And hopefully things will turn themselves to be better.
I am still searching for the one perfect girl…till that time…I shall travel alone:)