hey can we talk?
For all the people that wanna commit suicide
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@kat_15
Really? I wasn't loved by my "mother" she told me she liked my brothers better, and that she wished she had never adopted me. I tried to ask her for help with my anxiety and depression and all...and she laughed and said grow up. I currently live in what's basically an insane asylum, a residential program for people with mental illnesses. I'm just depressed. I don't need to be in this type of setting. She ruined my life. I can't trust anyone because of her breaking promises on a weekly basis. I'll believe it when I see it. Out of my 2 brothers and I, she only searched MY room. Why? Because she was my mother and was allowed to intrude. Not even my diary was safe. I only had privacy when I was in the bathroom. I never had friends over the house because she hated every person I liked. I never had a beanie baby or anything popular because she didn't want to waste money. I was bullied in school for not having those things. I told her about being bullied, and she laughed and said serves you right. I told her that I wanted to be a physical therapist or a social worker when I grew up because I wanted to help people. She told me that I was stupid and would never amount to anything. I was over 18, legally an adult and by law was allowed to give permission if I wanted her in my psych appointments and all. I tried to say no, but she'd push her way in and lie to the doctor and said she new me better than I did myself. She had one doctor wrapped around her finger and would kick me out of the room to talk to him privately. She convinced him that I was an alcoholic. I only drink a tiny bit at social gatherings. Because of her I have no life, no friends, no social life, no nothing. My own brothers don't know how to interact with me because of what she did to me. The main reason why I'm struggling to be here is that I now have a 2 year old niece who is giving me a bit of a reason to live. I still kind of with that my attempt in 2009 was successful. Then I'd never see how awful the country has become.
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@kat_15 Why didn't I see this before...damn this is beautiful in every angle, really touched my heart <3 <3
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@humanbean89 I'm so sorry what you had to go through....I have no words
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what if you don't have true friends, or you just don't have friends..everyone gave up on you..! does it mean i'm too bad to be loved..?
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@kat_15 sometimes, it's not that everything is positive. No matter how optimistic you are, you can't change something.
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@humanbean89 ever read Eminem's biography?
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I just wanted to add something. and say to people who think about suiciding. Just before u take any wrong step just think about your parents or the closest ones that you have and how will they feel when they don't have u besides them holding hands. They brought u into this world and they spent their lives just giving everything u need. And what u decide to do just for some grades or some random guy or girl who doesn't even know you for a year or whatever the reason, that's completely ridiculous and stupid. Their life will be like pointless because of your one imamture decision. Imagine if someone close to you committed suicide. How would you feel? That's exactly how your closed ones will feel. And don't give excuses like you were so out of options and were so helpless that you had to suicide. Suicide is an excuse for you but your closest people are the ones who will suffer the most. Just hold on and keep moving because I know and I promise that it will get better, it always does.
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@blue No it does not mean that you're bad. It's not anything wrong with u but it's wrong with the people who don't appreciate who you really are. It's their loss that they don't have someone wonderful in their life not yours. What others think about you doesn't matter, What you think about yourself does. So keep calm and love yourself because when you truly love yourself, then wonders happen. Cheers.
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@calisthenics thnx.. it made me happy reading what you said
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@ash1710 You can’t change everything but, you shouldn’t commit suicide
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This is what I’m trying to say. If you kill yourself, then how is that helping you in any way possible?
And the award for best boldie goes to DayShifter xD
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@blue It may not seem like it, but you have SO many people in this world that love you and would die for you ❤️♥️
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@im-a-bae Awh thanks ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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@kat_15 no need :blush: thank yourself cuz this can help a lot of people... just beautiful in every way <3 <3 <3 <3
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what if you never really had anyone. no close friends or family. your own adoption papers from the orphanage literally say "after a short fling a baby was born and taken to xyz orphanage" I've never known "love" lust, yes. love no. everyone I tried to love or trust fucked me over multiple times.
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@kat_15
I stop the pain and pointless usage of life. the "gift" of life? I never asked for it. What store can I return it to? I'm useless to society. I've been trying to get a job for years....and nobody even says no thanks. my family doesn't talk to me, I have no friends, and I live with mentally ill people in a "psych rehab" program. Not many people leave unless they violate rules or die. A guy has been here longer than I've been alive. If I was dead, then the room I'm in could go to one of these crazy mf-ers who need the help. If I had a job, I'd be better off. I have no $ for food, transportation, or a social life. I have nothing. All I have is a duffel bag I took from my parents' place. Didn't bother to take pictures of them with me since I knew they'd write me out of their lives. I heard my "mother" talk to one of her friends. She said YOU think YOU have problems with you child, meet Michelle. She has never tried to interact with me or love me. And another of her friends asked my older brother who's a special ed teacher that since he teaches retards, he should be able to help me. See? no support whatsoever from "family" and my "friends" took all my money, used me, abused and raped me, and left me on the street. I have a fucking reason I want to die. No amount of shoulder petting and bs saying it'll be fine would EVER help. Having depression over losing a job is one thing. Medical is it's own minefield.
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@kat_15 in short your speech saying that you have to be there for your lonely and depressed friends so they wont even try to think suicide themselves. Nice shot girls and good explanations.
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@blue Glad to hear that :)
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You also need to realize that sometimes people need to be left alone when they're depressed and suicidal. Some are just thinkers, not actually going to do anything. The thought does count that you offer to be there, but sometime all that head petting and shoving articles at us to read and tips that CNN or whatever says is ideal, isn't always, You never know how someone else feels until you've been in their shoes and walked down the same path. It's better to ask HOW can I help and wait and listen to what they say then presume you know what's right and annoy them by making them think you are a know it all and don't value them to listen to what they want to tell you...
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- meant than presume*
