How do I remove evil from my soul

[Coner Forev]

I'm lost in the darkness of my soul how do I just free my soul so I can find a new path

[Ephemeral]

Probably by helping others and expecting nothing in return. If not, then trolling trolls is probably a decent alternative.

[Coner Forev]

@i-am-male good deeds I have done but it is like a black hole it never is full

[Ephemeral]

@coner-forev Ah hence the "expecting nothing in return" part. March blindly forward my son, this is the task you're charged with.

[Coner Forev]

@i-am-male I give of myself never thinking of a return I have for 15 years now but I feel as empty as I did back then

[Ephemeral]

@coner-forev Reflect my son, "like a black hole it never is full", "I feel as empty as I did back then", these are not the words of someone who expects nothing. Only when you give up your desires, your expectations, can you start to find the light.

[htz]

There is no way. If you feel evil neither your dids neither your goals or surrounding gonna change it. Welcome to our side - i'm here for 4 years already, I guess. Time to time I just forget about it.

[Coner Forev]

@i-am-male I try to fill this hole with the joy of those I help not with anything that I expect just the joy of helping

[Coner Forev]

@bohdan-pozharskyi I never forget it is always with me but I don't let it consume me so I guess that is good right

[htz]

@Coner-Forev Just question - why you want to remove it? Do you feel on the edge? If so you should probably visit a doctor (no offense, I do visit, it doesn't help, but medication does). It's fine to be somewhat "evil" - you can be more coldblooded and think more about studying, career and other things to fulfil your ego.

[Ephemeral]

@coner-forev Ah, but not even light can escape a black hole! You must free yourself from all expectations, even from the joy of helping.

[Coner Forev]

@htz I just feel so empty like I could go mad but I always control but I should be better inside then I am

[htz]

@coner-forev Not all people kind. I am fine with the fact that I think I'm evil. I'm not doing anythin wrong/criminal etc. I'm just regular folk, yet being with anger and evil gave me nice push to move out from my situation in the past. Yet it's not going anywhere after this, so it has its own pros and cons.

[Coner Forev]

@htz yea I guess I never really looked at it that way but I do wish the empty ness would give me a little break

[htz]

@coner-forev Emptiness is a little different from being evil. If you understand this than just dont give up and keep trying. Also, I suggest check your hormon lvls - in many cases it's the cause - and if you feel on the edge - there might be already solution. If you have somewhat good health insurance - it won't be costy at all. It costed me 20 dollars for 4 months of medication (no side effects at all)- it's that cheap sometimes. But then it stopped working because my body resists and now it's same as before yet already trying other groups of medication.

[Coner Forev]

@i-am-male that is hard because I enjoy the feeling of helping

[Ephemeral]

@coner-forev Then you will have to accept that all light comes with darkness, a shadow cannot exist without the light, and vice versa.

[htz]

If I just could remove emptiness from my life and keep evil - I would be feeling good to myself. And as you said you enjoy helping. I do too, yet every betrayal, every bad thing that people've done to me - I dislike it a little too much. So I probably never will be truly kind in helping.

[Coner Forev]

@i-am-male yea I guess that is just my life .. thanks

[Ephemeral]

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