@Coner-Forev We are taught from young years that being evil is bad. Yet "everyone else is an asshole" - how is that happening? You, at least, can feel it. Others just do "what they think is right". So try to find pros of your feelings - try doing something that you are patient about - when feeling bad you feel better in this case. I, for example, do treadmill runs - it pumps my mind even higher and I feel extreme anger in the end, but I do something good to myself in terms of health. Try to find optimum for yourself, to feel complete. Sometimes it works

@Coner-Forev that's it. Here you go - evil removed, you are kind one, yet emptiness is left. Case closed.

@Coner-Forev I am software engineer - literally the same but for money :)

@coner-forev maybe you just need more time. Not enough context, you know, hard to judge the situation.

@Coner-Forev don't give up, if you feel this way more than two weeks - visit a doctor - as I said - it might be hormons problem or signs of depression. I'm fighting this shit for last 4 years with really low rate of success. I would say only dark thoughts keep me alive - like vengeance , dreaming about bloody comeback, want to make people pay for their deeds. It's always like that - there is no justice - but it's different story.

If I just could remove emptiness from my life and keep evil - I would be feeling good to myself. And as you said you enjoy helping. I do too, yet every betrayal, every bad thing that people've done to me - I dislike it a little too much. So I probably never will be truly kind in helping.

@coner-forev Emptiness is a little different from being evil. If you understand this than just dont give up and keep trying. Also, I suggest check your hormon lvls - in many cases it's the cause - and if you feel on the edge - there might be already solution. If you have somewhat good health insurance - it won't be costy at all. It costed me 20 dollars for 4 months of medication (no side effects at all)- it's that cheap sometimes. But then it stopped working because my body resists and now it's same as before yet already trying other groups of medication.

@coner-forev Not all people kind. I am fine with the fact that I think I'm evil. I'm not doing anythin wrong/criminal etc. I'm just regular folk, yet being with anger and evil gave me nice push to move out from my situation in the past. Yet it's not going anywhere after this, so it has its own pros and cons.

@Coner-Forev Just question - why you want to remove it? Do you feel on the edge? If so you should probably visit a doctor (no offense, I do visit, it doesn't help, but medication does). It's fine to be somewhat "evil" - you can be more coldblooded and think more about studying, career and other things to fulfil your ego.

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