Doesn't sound like a suicide post to me. Anyways what should I say. TWS is a strange place, it can be quite depressing to be here. So use at your own risk and be balanced about it.
But let's jump to the bigger questions. When you feel like you don't have a reason to live... then you haven't found a reason to live yet! (no shit sherlock :joy:) That's good, because it means, you can start searching. I could give you my answer, and I might, but before that let's appreciate the fact, that feeling bad is a good sign, that it's time to change something and grow.
And you will have to do that yourself. I can give you my answer, but it'll be useless to you, if you don't challenge yourself with it. You'll have to go and figure out for yourself what your reason to live is. I cannot do that for you, I – and everyone else – can only be a sign for you, pointing in a direction. You must go and choose your way yourself. And you will do so, because even doing nothing, is choosing a way. A wrong one though :yum:
Anyways, I myself have realized that TV and parties and all the things we do to not be bored are actually my reason for being bored. Stopping those resulted in me no longer being bored. And the meaning of life I've found in Christ. And I mean this is just subjective experience, but my life actually feels meaningful now. Took 10 years for a proper conversion though, I'm a tad slow :sweat_smile:. So I read TLIG and recognized His Voice. If you are one of His lambs, then you will recognize it too.