I just need advice i dont know what to do

[evybear]

I am currently 15 years old right now, my mom passed away when I was 2 year olds and my dad couldn't handle taking care of me and my brother so he moved back with his sister. That left my grandparents to take care of me (which they still do to this day) A little after my mom's death my grandparents divorced. Now I am 15 I really miss my mom, it breaks my heart the fact I never got to meet her, I don't remember what she looks like except for the picture. I don't even remember her voice. I don't get along with my grandma, its pretty clear she doesn't like me nor want me as she told me numerous of times. Both my grandparents are retired and don't want to be taking care of me right, they want to relax and live a retired life. I always feel empty, like I have nothing to live for. I really want to kill myself so I won't have to be a problem to my grandparents and I get to reunite with my mom. I just don't know what to I need help.

[clanniegy]

Life is full of infinite possibilities. Even when it feels like other people aren't happy you're around, you have the right to be happy and so you shall be. Set goals and dreams for yourself. Work towards them. Only having a purpose will help you. Your mother would want you to be happy, and you shall honor her life by not giving up on yours.