@evan-elderson Yeah ,no problem .
“Pain shared, my brother, is pain not doubled but halved. No man is an island”
― Neil Gaiman
..This is the place to share your past & tell of your nightmares. To Unburden yourself of those memories.
There are many people here with large hearts & open mind like yourself who will understand your pain & help you stay strong ,come what nightmares.
We all have screwed up pasts ,that we would rather forget.. most perhaps not as traumatic as yours.
But it is what is ..
You were a soldier.Doing your duty.
Not a murderous lunatic.
There is a beautiful quote ...
“God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it”
I donot know about God or his exam patterns but I do find it insightful.
Sink or swim.
You faced toughest of challenges -physical ,mental & moral & have emerged from it stronger.
Perhaps you would rather not have faced it ,but it's also true you are stronger than others because of it.
We all come here ..strangers from different places ,of different ages ..to get away from it all.
We take on masks ,different names to hide ourselves but wish to share our pain ,our stories .
Donot shy away , share at your own pace ,at your own time or not at all..trust that not all people are judgmental assholes & will be here for you.