i dont think that girls can love more than one person

@hopelessromance said in no judgement just lonely: married. I miss the feeling of being in love. Ive put up with a lot throughout these years. I just wanna find someone i can have an emotional & mental connection with again because as many times as ive talked to my husband and tried it never gets anywhere & any problem gets put back on me because hes a manipulator. Hes cheated on me multiple times, but i'm the one that forgives & puts up. i know its stupid but if anyone knows what its like to be given up on its me. I just miss love & connection, with a guy or girl it doesn't matter. non judgemental people. just positivity. Quite hard trying to think of something just say in front of everyone that is solely meant for you although I have nothing to hide it is harder for me to open my heart with everyone staring at me. I understand exactly what you are lacking and I have the same needs to the extent that what you say you miss are the exact same things that I feel the need to give and provide. I need to feel the intimacy in my heart before the lack thereof causes me to become a different person and lose that part of my psyche. I am a very loving caring and generous person and I need to have someone to give that aspect of me too because without it I'm slowly fading away not caring about my own existence. I'm not suicidal nor am I fatalistic but honestly I need to have someone that I can give to in my life and I'm tired of just being used for what I have not for what I am I give freely all of me meaning I want my lover to always have everything they want and they are free to take it however people that just see the things that they want will take I am unwilling to give. Does things that part of me needs to be long to someone who wants it not just someone who takes it and abuses it. There is no intimacy in rape. The love is not there. I need to look deep into someone's eyes and see their soul open and receptive to the love I'm giving and to feel the love that is returned in the same process. It is not hard to see it is not hard to feel it comes naturally when two people both open themselves and give freely to one another you cannot miss it. My soul is forgetting day by day that pleasure in life and that causes my mind to not care if this continues I will lose that part of me and forever my love will be altered for the worst. So please miss hopeless romance, at the risk of being cliched I beg you to please allow me the opportunity to show you true love and how it can be how wonderful your presence on Earth truly is and what it is like to be desired and cherished. How good life is when you have a true partner someone who wants to see you happy and wants to make life as good as it can be for both of us.

@Indrid-Cold Two sides to every coin. Yin and Yang. Good, better, bad, and worse all rolled into one