• Why didn't you call the authorities when you got rapped?


  • @Dogban I blamed myself until a few years ago for not yelling "no, stop", going over there with a friend in the first place, I was uncomfortable discussing it with my mom because we had never talked about sex, I was afraid she would be angry at me because I had lost my virginity, there was a huge blood stain on his bed and he seemed angry at me about it. I'm sure it was on his mattress forever. I wasn't agreeing to it though and he definitely knew I was afraid and uncomfortable. I was so young and innocent he pretty much took me to his bed and pulled off my pants saying "come on, sit here, it's fine" and got on top of me. I didn't even know for sure what was going on at first.


  • @Matt_Aranha thanks Matt, I am just realizing this too and healing.


  • Yeah, it's true you were too young for that. But being rapped is a serious issue, you should have talked to your parents immediately. Psichologically speaking this messed up all your life and it still continues to affect you in the present.


  • @Dogban I should have and I know I'm not the first that hasn't. I blamed myself. I couldn't see that it was him forcing me and not me not begging to leave and telling him to stop. In my mind I shouldn't have let it happen.


  • Damn girl you've been through a lot! I wish there were someone to support you at that time and you woulda talked to your parents about it. I hope you realize how precious and beautiful you are..just don't give up on yourself remember the reason you're still holding on. Don't give up! I think you should file a complaint against that jerk...and don't care about the consequences the fucker deserves it. If you remain silent he would get away with this easily, just like most of the abusers do. I wish my words could change your past but alas all they can do is provide solace.
    Remember you are amazing!


  • @Anastasia-Smith I cried reading this, thank you for your kind words. I guess I feel like it is too late to do anything about it. Maybe him and his wife share a page because he is still a jerk. His daughters are so beautiful and his wife seems so nice. He rejected me so cruelly afterwards. I asked him to hang out and he said no while looking disgusted then him and his friend drove away and I heard them laughing. I remember I was standing all alone by the road feeling ashamed of myself. It seems so sad when I write it out. I've felt like I deserve idiot losers since then and they seemed safer in my opinion. I'm coming around though. I'm going to try to stay single until I get my life worked out. I'm already teaching my 10 year old how to say no and if she doesn't want it than she doesn't have to just because they are pushing for it.


  • @leelah cmon you don't deserve idiot losers. I hope you find someone special who knows how to treat you right and loves you. I'm sure your daughter will grow up to be a strong woman. Not trying to sound nosy or something but its never too late.. I'm sure you aren't the only one he must have abused thus for yourself and all the other women you must file a complaint against him. Nobody deserves to be used like a rag doll and then thrown away! He must be punished for his deeds. I think his wife and daughters deserve to know what he truly is.


  • @Anastasia-Smith I will look up how to file a complaint. I just don't have any evidence and what can they do 17 years later anyway.


  • Thanks for the nice comments


  • @leelah Happiness is a choice. you should start moving on and not delve too much in the past. Whatever makes you sad, forget them/ignore them/throw them away.

    Why not start making happy stories?go out and have fun


  • Isnt choosing weird people in your life uhr fault ? I mean u have uhr mind .. its like not learning from uhr mistakes lol .. kinda like addict who go back to the addiction


  • Isnt choosing weird people in uhr life again and again uhr fault ? I mean you have uhr mind cant u use it and learn from uhr mistakes and experiences .. its like an addict going back to his addiction again


  • And i hope a good man stays away from u until u heal uhrself bcoz u will mess up his life too for sure .. and that will be unfair for that person


  • @Sybaritee thanks for sharing your opinion but your profile shows you being proud of being a good psychopath.


  • Of course lol and so i can see desperate self pitying people too .. who just dont wanna sort their life on their own and want to paint their dirt on other good people and spoil their life too


  • @Sybaritee I'm sorry for your faulty perception of me.


  • Your life was not unfair u were free it was all uhr choices of people no one forced u .. you are sane right? U can reason and see stuff so u can choose better lol


  • @Sybaritee you seem angry


  • @leelah You've got a lot to process, work through and overcome. Hopefully won't let your past take away your potential future. Use all your yesterdays to build only good tomorrows