I was raised to believe in God, and regard the name of Jesus, and being that there are witches, and warlocks in my ancestry, among the demonic attacks our family has been through I never questioned if God was real, rather that in being swarmed by legions of demonic entities, and worn down in spiritual realms, as well as by my peers in their own agendas, or disregard the only times I ever question God are out of fury, or discontent. In this I have learned we don't get what we want, things don't go our way, and bad things happen because the enemy just wants us to reject, or deny God, or even sell out to get what we want. I feel what I have been through, and witnessed is more than belief that God exists. I know he exists, but to me faith has become more about does he love me or not, and when I doubt his love things are terrible, but when I feel he does love me even when things are bad I feel much more comforted.