Posts made by K.qwerty

It's getting late where I am so I'm gonna sleep after deleting this post probably. All I can think of saying is I wish you luck on what's happening in your life (sorry that that was lame) goodnight

@cant-breathe thanks I appreciate your optimism I would say that I have that but I honestly don't know seeing as I might just drift apart from the two friends that I trust most eventually as well

@cant-breathe It's probably a factor the main realization came when my sibling ended up being abandoned by their friends after graduating and I just don't want to risk being ghosted and having to find no friends and just being hurt by anyone when they abandon me I guess I just got lucky at the fact that only a few talk to me after I go home online but yeah

@cant-breathe I don't know why anyone does anything anymore so that's a possibility

@cant-breathe yeah lol. the only reason I'm still even thinking about it so heavily is because my friend who is also my ex's friend brings her up sometimes for some reason. Which just makes me want to scream that her life isn't my business why are you telling me this??

@cant-breathe yeah it's cool, someone brought up the fact that she may be a sociopath in which made some of her behavior click to why she acted the way she did sometimes but even if she is or not (not confirmed) I just figure that she's kind of a dick do I know if she's changed no but I have no interest in finding out.

@cant-breathe You're fine it seems like you were bottling it up for a while so it was probably a bit of a release

@cant-breathe man I wish I could think of something to help that situation my perspective is probably too naive to even help taking steps to help yourself and the family you trust would probably be the main priority at that point. the stalker situation brings up so much dread for what a person in the people I know's life is going to become, from what I know he's followed at least two people on the bus to their house and targets girls which sucks for my friend group

does girlfriend count? basically we had no communication which was both of our faults I'm not saying that I didn't contribute but basically she ended up breaking up with me over text, making up a story about me dating two people during my time dating her (which she probably got the idea from my poor friend), and then asked her ex in which was my friend and wanted nothing to do with her on a date within a few days after breaking up with me. Is this the worst thing relationship wise I'll experience? I'm not finding out

@cant-breathe some people may say otherwise but if they broke you down like that for 27 years and you were sensible enough to not kill them I feel you like feeling joy out of the lie that is their life is deserved seeing as you've grown and moved on without them.

@cant-breathe ouch at least it seems like you had the last laugh? still that level of betrayal my god

@cant-breathe that's entirely your decision which is the one great thing about not being known on accounts, you can delete it without people irl questioning you

@cant-breathe It's kinda sad how if you're not seen posting anything online you are seen as dead when you can just make the effort to talk to them in person but then again that could probably bring relatives wanting something your way so ehh

@Deimat Sometimes I wish I could just change my personality to be the equivalent of a brick so no one would find me worthy to talk to while other times I want to be better to the people i know

@Deimat I get that I was like that with the people I want to associate with but then I got involved in other circles and my personality has changed so much and I feel like i'm burdening them so yeah

@cant-breathe at this point I just want to delete all accounts that I have and isolate myself because srojiwpek the only way I can express this is keyboard spam because it's sad that we have trust issues but it's even sadder how mental health isn't a detailed course in school so we can dissect how to solve our internal issues and so people can understand why some people act the way they do. I could keep saying it sucks to everything but in general I guess people just suck sometimes

@Deimat I am too, in my situation I only had lighthearted conversations with them during lunch breaks though for maybe a year and tried advancing a deeper relationship with some but it didn't end up working out and when I was done with the group's issues they followed me out of the group and then reformed it with it having mostly the same people and the same issues. I guess I just don't want history to continue to repeat itself later on in life and I want to know how to break away from a group without any following or hating me for leaving.

@cant-breathe That sucks, can't say I'm better though as I obsess over if I'm even good enough to be friends with the people that I choose to associate with. But yeah the people I was hanging out with at a point ended up only talking to me during break and then don't care about me after they go home so it shouldn't have really been a surprise seeing as they didn't put effort into talking to me after hours when I tried doing so. that's at least in my case...