@cant-breathe at this point I just want to delete all accounts that I have and isolate myself because srojiwpek the only way I can express this is keyboard spam because it's sad that we have trust issues but it's even sadder how mental health isn't a detailed course in school so we can dissect how to solve our internal issues and so people can understand why some people act the way they do. I could keep saying it sucks to everything but in general I guess people just suck sometimes

@Deimat Sometimes I wish I could just change my personality to be the equivalent of a brick so no one would find me worthy to talk to while other times I want to be better to the people i know

@cant-breathe ouch at least it seems like you had the last laugh? still that level of betrayal my god

@cant-breathe some people may say otherwise but if they broke you down like that for 27 years and you were sensible enough to not kill them I feel you like feeling joy out of the lie that is their life is deserved seeing as you've grown and moved on without them.

does girlfriend count? basically we had no communication which was both of our faults I'm not saying that I didn't contribute but basically she ended up breaking up with me over text, making up a story about me dating two people during my time dating her (which she probably got the idea from my poor friend), and then asked her ex in which was my friend and wanted nothing to do with her on a date within a few days after breaking up with me. Is this the worst thing relationship wise I'll experience? I'm not finding out

@cant-breathe yeah lol. the only reason I'm still even thinking about it so heavily is because my friend who is also my ex's friend brings her up sometimes for some reason. Which just makes me want to scream that her life isn't my business why are you telling me this??

It's getting late where I am so I'm gonna sleep after deleting this post probably. All I can think of saying is I wish you luck on what's happening in your life (sorry that that was lame) goodnight

@cant-breathe thanks I appreciate your optimism I would say that I have that but I honestly don't know seeing as I might just drift apart from the two friends that I trust most eventually as well

@cant-breathe It's probably a factor the main realization came when my sibling ended up being abandoned by their friends after graduating and I just don't want to risk being ghosted and having to find no friends and just being hurt by anyone when they abandon me I guess I just got lucky at the fact that only a few talk to me after I go home online but yeah

@cant-breathe I don't know why anyone does anything anymore so that's a possibility

@cant-breathe yeah lol. the only reason I'm still even thinking about it so heavily is because my friend who is also my ex's friend brings her up sometimes for some reason. Which just makes me want to scream that her life isn't my business why are you telling me this??

@cant-breathe yeah it's cool, someone brought up the fact that she may be a sociopath in which made some of her behavior click to why she acted the way she did sometimes but even if she is or not (not confirmed) I just figure that she's kind of a dick do I know if she's changed no but I have no interest in finding out.

@cant-breathe You're fine it seems like you were bottling it up for a while so it was probably a bit of a release

@cant-breathe man I wish I could think of something to help that situation my perspective is probably too naive to even help taking steps to help yourself and the family you trust would probably be the main priority at that point. the stalker situation brings up so much dread for what a person in the people I know's life is going to become, from what I know he's followed at least two people on the bus to their house and targets girls which sucks for my friend group

does girlfriend count? basically we had no communication which was both of our faults I'm not saying that I didn't contribute but basically she ended up breaking up with me over text, making up a story about me dating two people during my time dating her (which she probably got the idea from my poor friend), and then asked her ex in which was my friend and wanted nothing to do with her on a date within a few days after breaking up with me. Is this the worst thing relationship wise I'll experience? I'm not finding out

@cant-breathe some people may say otherwise but if they broke you down like that for 27 years and you were sensible enough to not kill them I feel you like feeling joy out of the lie that is their life is deserved seeing as you've grown and moved on without them.