some people have misunderstood about my obsession of NNN

[Ash33]

so, few times we have conversation of nnn in pub chat, but since pub chat was alive and lots of people talking (which is a rare phenomenon) , I didn't get much time to explain my side.

some people think it is a childish or I am flexing (maybe I was flexing), but nnn is importance for me.

I did nnn twice in past 2 years. but I did that just for fun activity, following a trend without knowing it's importance. even tho this came out of a meme. it has a good benefit that makes it worth to practice imo.

so this year is different, the motive to do nnn is different to me now. few months ago I was into drawing people on reddit. most of them are NSFW drawings. and I used to post them. people like and appreciate it. even few artist liked my work. and that made me keep going but at a point I realize I am doing it just for outer validation. I was just pleasing people. it not like I am getting inspired by anything but likes and comments. so I stopped it.

and then on the other site porn and nsfw content has ruined my mentality to see a woman. it not that intense like a sex predator but at some degree I differ men and women.

and especially white women. women out site on my country in general. since I am exposed to a lot of porn, subconsciously I have created an image of them, whenever I see any resemblance to any porn actress, I started to think them as porno. even if that woman wasn't a porn actress. this thing is too embarrassing when I noticed it.

then I decided to cut off these consumption and focus on things that really matters. also I try to find woman's who have achieved something with revealing their body. woman's like danica patrick, sugargoddess . women who are not playing with men's natural urges and providing someting valuable. this is for creating a new image for women in my subconscious mind.

so doing this all one should have control over its genitals. nnn is my assertion that now on I will ought to change, to cultivate my mind.

p.s. I write too much coz it fun to type on mechanical keyboard. and I hope now I will stop peaching nnn on pub chat. if someone wants to talking of it, feel free to comment below.

[rehka]

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[Ash33]

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[Ash33]

@rehka what ? Speak up. Didn't u like my openness? 😅

[rehka]

@AshK idk what to say man. Try to not fail 💪🔥

[Ash33]

@rehka haha thanks