Behind every screen
Is a flurry of emotions
Behind every screen is a human being
That can deceive you, that can lie, that can fake emotions
“Technology is a gift” they say
And I cannot disagree
After all, its what brought me to you.
“Technology is a gift” they say
Which is hard to understand
Is it a gift when they are saying “its fine”
When in reality they have trouble typing
Because they are wiping too many tears
Off the screen?
Is it a gift when you are boiling with anger
And just want to throw the phone?
A mistake- a word used to describe when someone does something they end up regretting
And you know what they say
“Live life with no regrets”
Yet they are also the ones that say
“Learn from your mistakes”
And
“We are human, mistakes happen, and they are the best things to learn from”
But maybe I am done quoting “they”
Let’s be honest with ourselves
You can learn- but you do not change
You learn that if you let a balloon go
It wont come back
And you cant grab it back-
Itll be far too late
Itll continue floating away,
Until one day it is just - gone.
Maybe before you realize it ,
You never should have let go of that balloon
Let me try another one
If you pop a balloon
You cannot unpop it
It is hurt
And cannot be repaired
Especially by the one who broke it
I want to come back to you screaming
“I MADE A MISTAKE” “I KNOW IT”
“PLEASE forgive me.”
“PLEASE dont fly away”
“PLEASE unpop”
That is entirely too selfish.
That is entirely too disastrous.
The songs tell me
That love is reckless
Love is messy.
But we have that perfect kind of love
I had that perfect kind of love.
Before I let it fly away
“Think twice”
Or just...think
“Grab onto what you want, and you will have it”
And don’t ever let go
Technology is great
It brought me to you
But yet it made me make mistakes
I still want you, and I wish you wanted me too.
Im not a selfish person.
Its time to let go
❤️💜💚💛💙🧡
everyone once loved Weelow
Soooo I originally posted this topic but for stupid reasons, I purged it because I was upset
Anywho,
If you dont have a boyfriend,
There is no one to steal clothes from (in my opinion, thats the best part of dating).
So i did what any financially responsible person would do, and I bought a man’s sweater.
So THAT WAY, you dont have to have the
Boyfriend and can get comfy clothes
Rules: you can only nominate ONE user for each award. If you do more, none of the vote will be considered.--
You can nominate yourself. Try to choose users that you know deserve it
THIS IS A TOPIC THAT IS OPEN TO ANYONE AND EVERYONE. YOU CAN MENTION ANY USER WOU WANT AND THEY ALL HAVE AN EQUAL CHANCE OF WINNING.
Good luck, and may the odds be ever in your favor.
Once I have my nominations, the voting will begin on Friday my time.
What did i do...to deserve to be blessed today.
Im addicted to penguins, so obviously Imma go with the penguin
Your turnnnnnnn
Okieeee so everyone is mostly a diff color so i can help you interpret my beautiful art
In the top right corner, we have @im-a-bae with her big ass hair (at least her pfp’s hair) pushing pregnant @ragnar in a wheelchair because he is going into labor soon (dats why he is crying).
Then on the black line we have @Evan-Elderson in an army helmet making out with @mr-h . And of course, @rendezvous is jacking off to it because he loves gay porn.
@Abby-22 and @BOOTS22 are holding hands to survive the crazy together
On the hood of the car beside the black line is I, the caprisun queen, hanging out with @obviouslylucifer . And he is staring evily @Help_WtfJudith because he wants to get revenge on her for tricking him.
To the left, we have @Help_WtfJudith with her 38ddddddd breasts (the image is scaled to a smaller size to save room). She is strangling @g.a with her long ass skinny dick.
At the bottom of the image, we have @sup confessing his undying love for @NutellaBigGoat .
And then in the bottom right we have @imbored visiting the tws graveyard (aka @layla and @stranger.danger ). He is also eating a slice of pizza cuz he works at pizza hut with his luscious hair
I will be adding a stinky @zoobie later i just ran out of room
Toff you peeps
We gather here today
To celebrate the life of a friend,
A member of the family,
Someone who has been there every day of my life. (Okay okay i got them a few months ago, still).
A soul no one can put a price on (they were 49.99 at costco)
My glasses....have been broken
I was at volleyball, wearing my beloved glasses.
When a ball came flying out of nowhere.
That was the moment when I knew...it would be the last time I wore those frames. It would be the last time I could ever see clearly
iactually bought a new pair today
And as they hit the ground.....the sides broke off.....and i had to watch (it was quite blurry without my glasses on) as the light left my precious beautiful navy glasses
a moment of silence for my best friend
A writing of a thousand words no one will completely read
A post that will get lost among the horny outcries, topics riddled with drama, and stupid clickbait.
The words I write are to whom it may concern.
To the people who pointed out my flaws, my mistakes, my unreasonable actions. Thank you. The thoughts that cross my mind every day, the ones I see when I stare in the mirror, the ones I ponder on when Im alone, you make them more alive.
“Kill yourself” , trust me, I would if I could. But the girl in the mirror, is too much of a coward to go through with it.
“Chubby”, trust me, as much as I starve myself, it will never be good enough for you.
“Dumb as a brick wall”, trust me, I think about that one a lot. The girl in the mirror, is an airhead. Only because I can never share the opinion you have.
To the people who leave. Thank you. Never once has a day gone by where I dont wish I could turn back time.
You had no friends? I get that....I feel that. Almost every day. That lonely feeling, will just keep eating at you, until you become it.
You had better things to do? I get that...I feel that. Sometimes I feel like my life could be better, if only I had the will to try.
You couldnt handle the drama? I get that...and I feel that. Thats all this place is, and people live for it. Little do they know that piece by piece, the stress of the drama gets to you.
To the people who I called my friends. Thank you. You made days a little more bearable. A little easier to handle
You know me? I flawed out. I hid too many things. Youll never really know me. Because what you see is the smile. What I see, is whats so carefully hidden behind it.
You were my “bestie”? I flawed out. I trust easy, and care for people even easier. Humans are despicable. And sometimes I have to remember that not everyone deserves a second chance. And the world, isnt all cupcakes and rainbows.
You were my family? I flawed out. I forgot what that word means.
To the people who I say I loved. In sorry.
We rarely talk? Im sorry...sometimes I cant keep my priorities straight. I am bad at showing love.
We argue? Im sorry...sometimes I like to think that I know everything. Even though I dont even have the first damn clue.
We have a ritual of saying I love you? Im sorry..sometimes I take that word too lightly. Love all the wrong people, and they will destroy you.
To whom it may concern.
My name is Willow.
I fuck up. I make mistakes
Im not beautiful. It takes so much effort to take a picture.
I cant win every argument. I dont know everything.
I cant ever love you. Because i dont even know what being loved feels like anymore.
I am sensitive. Emotions are the only thing i really know.
Sometimes
Its okay to not be okay
My time here has been fun.
I can remember so many happy private conversations, public chat weirdos, and building my friend group.
This site has given me a lot of experience in strange and unique categories. Like cyberbullying prevention and how to deal with the horny. :) However, its downhill.
Im not here to make yet another post about how much TWS sucks (as much as I want to, imma hold myself back :p.)
Recently my life has gotten stressful (always) and Im slipping back into this void of blankness. Im slipping back to the mentality that this is all too...fake. That the whole world including myself has faked in one way or another. Whether it be through fake love or even just fake people, its time to pick me.
No more spammers. No more trolls. No more misery. And no more admin jabber. No more fake friends. No more fake personality traits. And most of all, no more sadness.
I would like to thank everyone that made these last five months so fun. You pushed me to be happy every time. And you pushed me to be a better person. I have never met so many people that accept me as who I am.
I would also like to thank the assholes and bitches. Thank you for showing me who I am. Helping me realize what I stand for, where my opinion rests. Thank you for showing me what I can and cant control, and helping me practice this control.
Its time for me to quit running from the inevitable, and choose myself. This is me. Willow Maryann Louisa Sanders. And I choose to work on myself rather than pour my heart into other peoples problems and weird chatrooms.
It was my home. But now home is just going to be a distant memory.
@talkwithstranger you can go ahead and unmod this account. It will be inactive for a very very long time.
If anyone else every needs ANYTHING, i will be here for 12 more hours, and then tomorrow, I start a new chapter of myself. One that it TWS free. But back to it, if you need anything, you have twelve hours to ask in pm’s for my instagram or email.
Bye bye
Ever had so much to say that you dont even know where to start?
Ever had so many emotions crashing through you, you dont know whether to cry of sadness or scream out of anger?
Ever realize you made a mistake and you feel completely helpless?
They say when someone commits suicide, they dont believe that anybody will care. But someone is always affected. And then that person looks around, they see so many happy people and think wow, how can they be happy at a time like this?
That, is the perfect description of how I feel right now. And yes this is me doing what i usually do, getting all my feelings out in a stupid little topic.
@Stranger_Danger has left TWS. As most of you already know.
To most people he was a horny little reptile who could make any subject a happy one. And had a humor unlike any other.
About a month ago I went through a period of depression. It happens to everyone. I felt alone, happy around “friends” and sad when I was by myself.
I nearly did it. The day I got home from the hospital, I took my new pain killer bottle and I set it in front of me, sitting in the bathtub. And I stared at it for so long. In one hand I held a picture of all the people I know would miss me. And in the other, was a TWS page open on my iPod.
No one had messaged me anything respondable. I went through and I apologized to so many.
Apologized for lying
Apologized for being selfish
Apologized for being annoying.
Snek wouldnt accept it. He stayed up all night with me. He would skip multiple hours of sleep, just so he could be on when I needed him.
He was selfless.
In moments I felt like tearing myself apart, he made me laugh. God the dude knows how to make someone laugh.
He was funny.
I knew that when I got myself into drama. Or someone was shitting on me, he would have my back. Most people knew the funny, stupid side of him. But I knew he can also kick ass with logic and smarts.
He was a loyal friend.
He is everything I have ever wanted to be.
And I also understand why he had to go, but that doesnt change the fact that I wish he was still here
Im sorry that I wasnt there for him now the way he was for me.
Im sorry I allowed us to somewhat separate and he felt like he was no longer needed.
Im sorry that I couldnt make him smile, because it was his time to weep.
And God damn I wanted to use his real name so many times in this stupid post. Fuck you for being the mysterious annonymous stranger Snek.
Sometimes we feel bad. And we look for connections in the strangest places...i certainly did . I initially joined for sexual reasons and friendship. I just felt that i needed another person, however I could get them. TWS was a place I could sit back and enjoy myself. Enjoy funny convos, responding to weird topics, and visiting the pub chat. I mostly lurked. Watching the funny chaos.
I stayed because TWS does have some amazing people. A few important ones would be
@charzard @bushmurry and @football_m29
Ive had the most hilarious conversations of my life on this site. Ive made so many true friends. Ive made a family i never had. Sometimes days got hard. But at the end of it all, the ones who mattered most, the real ones, stayed.
Then I met the love of my life. @RAGNAR . This was the biggest perk of staying on this site. I met a mofo as crazy as me. The cutest i have ever seen. The funniest conversation of them all. And i had a good first month and a half on TWS.
TWS seemed to be the one thing I have been looking for. I needed this “interaction”. I needed people that understood me. I needed a place i knew i could share my opinion if I ever wanted. I needed this little fun gig of topics.
I became a moderator and everything changed. I became painfully aware of the negatives. The overlooks. The hate. This is what i associate as the downfall of my happiness. I was immediately greeted as being the worst moderator. People told me i only got the position because i dated @RAGNAR . And what hurt most, is that it felt true. I had the admin up my ass firmly stating that i always made mistakes. That i wasnt one of the top. I remember feeling like I was in a competition with the other moderators.
What were my ‘mistakes’? Making the most morally correct decisions. I started seeing these incidents when I joined the public chat and paying attention to complaints from users. I gained quite a few enemies. I remember some nights crying my eyes out. Perfect example: @willowlovesBBC . And there were also trolls that people don’t do anything about. I had to sit back and watch as a sixteen year old girl get harassed. She was called a slut, whore, and poor baby momma. And when I talked to the admin about it, he did nothing. Nothing was done. This poor girl, left the site with her confidence in rags. I still talk to her sometimes...and it is something she will never forget.
This was not the TWS i first joined. This was not the site that made me come back every day excited for a new round of conversations.
Instead of a “free fun chatroom”, i find minors being bullied, people of all genders and ages being sexually harassed, and spammers climbing through the walls. And nothing. Gets. Done.
Its complete torment to see the rules go ignored. And the guilt tears away at me to not be able to do a damn thing about it. I am letting my morals slip as low as everyone else’s on this site.
I remember at some point starting a mission of my own. I started a chain of love posts. Of topics that I wanted to change the way things happened. If the larger power (admin) wasnt going to do anything, i was going to do everything in my power to change as much as i could. And so it began...
http://chatrooms.talkwithstranger.com/topic/11300/psa-for-all-the-people-that-think-its-okay
http://chatrooms.talkwithstranger.com/topic/11568/let-s-talk-bout-da-hate/1
http://chatrooms.talkwithstranger.com/topic/10837/what-religion-are-you?page=2
But I found that it wasnt creating a change. My naive little world was collided with a tidal wave of reality. Nothing could stop what was happening. I have had my anxiety meds doubled, depressants doubled, and my faith in this site grow smaller every day. Nothing i could do through these posts could change things. And no argument that i presented would ever change the rules of the world.
Things changed again...a lot of my daily trollers had left. Most have never come back. And i made a whole new round of friends. Everything was turning up good for me. I made friends with
@BOOTS22 @Abby.83 @Kat_15 @US Poet and many many more, too many to list.
And that brings us...to this month...
I have fallen on my ass again. Bullies have once again appeared in my pm’s. And the crushing feeling in my chest came back. Nothing had been done still. My blood boils when I think about it. THIS IS NOT THE WAY THE WORLD SHOULD WORK, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
And I found that I am not alone. I looked back and realized, i wasnt the only user. So I found my new hope. I started a mission. Every user I could think of, some I have never even met before now, stepped up to my challenge. We would make our experience known. Id like to thank all of the people in the “Mission Impossible” group chat. @zazzles @anti-cute @Abby.83 @BOOTS22 @US-Poet @RAGNAR @cutie-cat @goodgirll @iinutellaii @jynextremist @Kat_15 @Emilyyyyyy @Dude-Lebowski @Kimmy159 @miracle7 @DangerousWoman @girlwhois16 @Rabbitboy @Leo_Sihra @Sammy @Black_Beetle @S_Dawn and last but certainly not least @sup
Even if mission impossible doesnt work, all of you people are the greatest. Some of you are total strangers to me, but still willing to help me out, that gives me hope. And to some of you that I am close to, thank you for sticking by my side. Thank you for being there when i cried or had a panic attack from silly business on a stupid site.
No matter what happens after this post is done, after this little movement is done, i can at least take away one helluva group of individuals. I have found the good ones-thank you for that.
Also, because I am quite done trying to show my respect and be a good mod, fuck you @talkwithstranger
@Saloniii
I can make a list
But it would be longer than the topic
sips caprisun
@Sara-f pm me bb
I have a lot of explaining to do
Damn. You killed my Mod dreams with your wordly sword. Would definitely ponder about your advice.
:)
@Wolfie_11
I love the fact that the “mods suck” discussions havent died even after a year.
Mods have the ability to see your IP, see pasts usernames. Basically err thing you can see and do in your profile, they can see as well (minus passwords)
They can change your bio, edit your posts in both topics and public chat.
Ban you, obviously.
Revoke your session (which basically just logs you out and you have to log back in).
Mmm, they can move topics to different categories. Change your pfp I think (been awhile, I cant remember).
Word of advice for these “elections” coming up. That way you cant say someone did not warn you. Moderator is not a fun position...at all. It is very much so just a position people have to rub the power into other people’s faces and to basically do the admin’s job for em.
But hey! Best of luck n you have my vote :)
@Pugopilis said in What is this place....:
@Willow QUICK RUN BACK TO THE INTROVERT CAVE
Say no more. Ill bring the avocadoes
(id love to understand if hella is your catch phrase or not and the story behind why)
@IM-BORED said in What is this place....:
@Pugopilis holy dogshit you're back finally. it's been weird when @Willow
and few other people who been disappeared are coming back.....
Weird as in we need to leave orrrr....?
@ObviouslyLucifer said in I need a daddy-Please send help:
@Willow said in I need a daddy-Please send help:
LUCIFER HAS A SMOL DICC
Its not as big as @WtfJudith 's 3km or Your 13 incher, but its big enough!!!!
I cannot believe. The most sophisticated man I have ever met. Just responded to this
I feel like youre my father and you just made some kind of sex joke
@Kiss_My_Axe said in I need a daddy-Please send help:
@Willow Im your ex. the one u ignored on instagram.
....how abt an old username
Cuz sweetie....I have a lot of ex friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, you get the point
