Posts made by Emma Bradley

" Holding on to something sweet. Taking the pain in. Gives away her pride. In a broken body. Falling down every night another fight. Tring to find that missing light. She has her head in her heart. For a man with a hole in his chest. Slowly changing the price she had paid. Gave away her life. It's easier to keep her head in her heart. She kept her head up. Don't you cry He would say. Talk through your problems never avoid such pain. Don't worry. Nothing is wrong. Clear my head. Push it down and don't let the whole world crush this down. Even with this broken heart, it's a brand new start. Moved on and still took this heart that's half gone. Been so blind. Loved her with a hug. Loved him with my kiss. Time for a new start. Taking the pain. Making a song. She had her head in her heart. In a broken body. Gives away her pride. Holding on to something sweet.
A love with thoughts.
Just a girl who walked away.
I will miss who we changed into.
I needed her head in her heart.
She needed a guy with an empty space to fill.
A warm hug. A savory kiss. A problem to work through.
Just- start over. Give away another try. Let it go wrong to make it right. Survive with only ahead in her heart.

"Went outdrove the gas tank with music blasting at the gas stations we would pass by. I miss home I wish we stayed together. I get my lips talk to much. I want to stay up all night.
Even if things went wrong. Drinking too much. Sleeping it off. Friends call up asking if things are ok.
It's so like me to drink the bottle than through it away.
No sleep just driving till the gas runs low.
Wish we could do it all over. Dance with your hands wrapped around my waist. Staying up too late was never going to change with you.

"Now now now let me just talk about something stupid that I have done when I was 16 years old.
I was on a day trip to my grandma's house no this is not a fake story. Let me start at the beginning. I was driving with my mom & dad when all around me the road seemed so still.
I asked my mom what plans grandma had.
Mom said, " Emma I told you me & your father are helping with the yard so it's nice."I of course forgot I had asked that my mom the same dumb question. Spack my head ha. We soon arrived.
There was a wooden bench that was held up by metal chains.
There was brick around the house with a few windows.
A lovely back yard with paths that led further. Tons of nature covered the sky within the slow-moving trees. As my parents got out of the parked car they grabbed supplies for the yard.
As I went exploring. I saw squirrels nibbling on seeds. I saw birds flying tweet tweet. I went inside gave my Grandma a big hug. The smell was strong of baked cookies. I asked if I could have one😉or more. I had a sweet tooth. My Grandpa was sitting in a small room from the kitchen. He looked like he had a haircut. He was handsome. His smile made me happy. He let me play with his money toys. If you don't know what that is well look it up. Nah kidding. My first penny toy that ate the money then licked its lips as he slowly swallowed each amount I put on its hand as it closed its eyes. My Grandpa told me that he was saving pennies for something special but didn't say what.
Anywho... I went back outside when I heard a ribbit sound.
A fast hopping tode flew from the brush as it made its way to the other side. I ran to hold it in my hand. I missed a few times. I giggled as I felt warmth on my hand. I was holding the tode in my hand as it peed all over my hand. I blushed and put the lil guy down. One after another I had held tode after tode. I wanted to keep one so bad. So me being stupid grabbed one before it was time to go. It had made it home safe thank goodness. I had let it go to explore my house yard. I felt weird like I had grabbed more than just one... I had brought my bag with flowers on it. It had snacks and grass and dirt.. I should have checked my bag before I left. I ran up to my room just to find several todes on my bed. Under my bed. Every direction tode after tode. Soon my mom found me by the window playing with the todes. She was NOT happy with me. I explained It was only supposed to be one. We let them go I had told my Grandma all about it. We both told each other to just try to laugh through it all just watch out the next time.

"You could say I defeated a part of myself.
You could say I left the old me dusting on a shelf.
Let it be so. I have always known there will come my turn to grow. I avoided so many paths. Chose only my own way.
The world might go against me. I don't care what they say each choice is mine. Every movement I control whether I'm laughing or crying even being dramatic. I get not everyone can be understood. I may not even understand myself just yet.
I say to be ambitious.
I say live life like your still young.
Be free. Caring. When you are misunderstood you have to be serious about proving your points.
Not many know what it's like to be left out or falling in love.
Having loving parents. Having a best friend who would do anything for you. Take a minute to relax... You may be shy.
You may not have it all figured out. Don't avoid your paths.
Try something new. Get out of that comfort zone. Stay home during this pandemic. We all feel alone right now. We watch tic toks or videos of teens or young adults happy and with friends or family. Don't follow their example stay home stay safe laugh with the videos made by them. Keep in mind at home with family isn't so bad. Keep trying. Keep your head up. Give thanks. Give cards to mail out even if it's just a close Neighbor.
Good luck out there my fellow followers.

@nile023 Yes I am. I just need a reminder that My life has difficulties. It helps me clear my head and keep positive.

Dear future me.
Keep shining. Be glad of who you are.
Now plant flowers in the dirt below.
Water each flower. Watch as they grow.
Add some decoration. Share food that grew.
Make and bake or cook. Let the flower cover the floor.
Let the dogs run in the yard. Let the turtles swim.
Let the cows feed on the green grass. Sun will shine as days get long. I have to say to my future self grow! grow! grow!.
You can be as light as the petals. Soft as nector. Stong like a stem. With others around you will not live life alone.
Enjoy moments with family. Follow rules. Open yourself to others. So Emms you may feel weak or lonely in later life just know people have your back. Your followers on this website have read your posts. Other than me. who am I? As I ask this.. I feel like a poet.. or a story writer. I can get annoying with my posts, haha or I feel like my posts are boring. I just try to make myself look back at all I have done. I love all my followers well.... Nah jk I was going to say something dorky.
Anyway, Thank you all for supporting me. Thank you for letting my future self look back at my work.:hearts: :hearts: :heart_with_arrow:

:confounded: Must life give humans new hope.
Why ask so many questions when we know the answer.
Why do men have such strength? Why do women work so hard?. Doing what we can to ask questions. FBI agents have done the work. Fbi takes photos so remember what happened. Yet with evidence a runaway hostage.
A little girl with a family had been taken in for questioning.
They say insistence. The girl lost her father a positive man a strong man. With only her mom working a day job only getting paid a small amount. Now as you read this Think about your family. Think about how much you would miss them. Anything can happen at any time. We trust the pandemic to be over in a year or two. Lost way too much.
Seeing numbers on a tv screen. Hearing the number of deaths on a radio. Still with this little girl with her mom... fighting for the right. Victims still need to tell their stories.
Give a truth about what goes on with online chats. Getting questioned over a mistake. Hostage for runaway protection.
You may not understand this post sorry. I thought about people who lost jobs... Homes... victims... How we girls and boys want the world to be. We may not all be great at everything but we try. We may not be smart ... but we try. We lose family or friends mostly all the time. Give those a chance to tell their side of the story. Ask the right questions. Stay safe stay close with family.

Today.
To-start.
To-stop.
To-let go.
To-lose hope.
To-gain faith.
All we want is light.
All we ever need is air.
We see a good part of a human face.
We see a smile. We see the spark in the eyes.
We see the different feelings in a facial expression.
What we try to not see is sadness.
Tears with makeup or salty drops falling down.
Looking so ugly. Feeling ashamed for nothing.
Laying on the floor, bed, couch, Stairs, and kitchen table.
We try so hard. Yet we get hurt. We stay positive. We hug those who need it most. We hide once more. As God keeps thundering down we still pray "It will get better just wait".
So we wait .... and wait. Nothing changed.
After a year nothing changed. After trying to talk to someone who understands. Talk to yourself say "I do want to be happy".

How much a song can keep a rhythm.
A sound of a pen on paper.
The ink fills this page.
Thoughts give chills as my pen stops at a bottom end.
A chapter never to be forgotten. Drawn to fine detail.
Eyes wide open. Who am I when everything starts to change?
Who will remember my words? What if God made up a book of lies. The new dawn of what I could have said.
As the letters wrote out a mystery.
The note that changed it all.

Alone. afraid. Sad. All in my head thinking of you.
Holding your soft open hands. I walk with my toes.
I would give the world to see you once more.
I made my mistake. I didn't see it through.
Thought we were falling in love just online.
We talked for a long while. Felt so real. Flames blow out when his message began to type. It was a real person on the other side of the screen. Moments like this so close to him. Tusting him. Feels like fate. Just online with this stranger. We are all looking for love. Looking to fall in love. Making love. A relationship online. I am afraid to show who I am on this side of the screen. Seeing him being the one for me.

Under the deep sea. how does one breathe underwater?
Yes, we could have the gear to swim underwater.
Still, we take baths and go under the bubbles.
in this short time, we fill our lungs with water.
Stange how death goes in a blink of an eye.
A lost feeling. Not noticing how many we can affect.
Gasp for air. Holding your hands on the chest that's heart slowly came back. Glad you made it huh?. Yeah, death is a regret. No, my poetry and stories I share are not real they just open minds to understand life is more than we know. I don't want anyone to feel as if I have done this or anything to die.
Do not use my stories to feel as if you should hurt yourself or someone else. I do not mind sharing my stories. Some bring back memories of real moments in my own life. Take my stories as hope.

Never change who you are.
Love who you want.
You don't have to hurt.
Look in the reflection.
Who do you see?.
What do you feel?.
You are only afraid to show yourself.
You look at yourself saying you're done.
You try to end it all.
You through stuff all over hitting the walls.
You yell. You plead. You choke.
what do you live for? should you be more than this struggle killing you? Till you see a monster looking at you.
All will heal. with a lil time... You will be proud of how far you have made it.

This tree stands wilted fears show within the falling leaves.
Walk past this lonely tree.
Forgot how to hold a hand.
Gave in. Let the air fill my weak lungs.
Parked my bike along the bridge.
Took off my helmet. Walked slow. Took my time.
Made her cry. Made her look at me with hurt.
Made her leave me. My mom said to take time with love it can break too easily. I told my mom I could have listened. I should have never let the one I loved I- I god I can't breathe.
I sit under the tree I pasted by too many times.
Her hair still feels as if the wind is blowing me away.
Her voice... her beautiful soft voice... reminds me of the winter snow.. how I left with a melted heart.
Why... just give me a chance to make this ok.
Maybe just maybe... This tree stands with leaves waiting to be loved. I run to my Bike I close my eyes. I knock on the door.. hoping she answer. She opened the door arms crossed waiting for an explanation. I say to her..." I am nothing without you I am trying to find the right words to say... I can't lose you. I never should have let you go". She opens her arms with both of us crying holding each so close.

Why do we try so hard to fit in?.
How do we stop ourselves from harm?.
As a human, we get hurt too easily.
I have done bad things to my body.
I have vaped. I have drank. I have lied.
I have learned about the aftermath.
People tell you not to do this, yet we still do.
The question is why?
Just to feel good?. to fit in with others?.
How about NO.. is what we say to those who pressure our minds to do harm to our body.
We try to fix ourselves with more.
A true addiction.
I have learned with my parents this kind of drugs, vapes, alcohol, and lies. Why not say NO instead of trying to get attention. Make you feel good. Do not feel bad that you said the wrong words because that's what makes you strong and more likely to be a friend. So ask yourself how about NO.

May I just slip off this page as if it's over?
May I take this chance to make it ok?.
Can I say my story was wiped away?
As I hold on to this state of numbness.
I wanna be higher now. I just want to be high.
I want to overdose.
I need to get over it.
Lay with my thoughts.
A great memory fades.
Music letting my feet feel free.
As you saw me... as if you didn't.
Bet on love. the made-up world just for me.
Made up a story with only my void to fill.
As you lay looking down on me.
As I fall into a dream.

Well.. Chewie and Matt_Aranha. Thank you. Yes, it's almost hard to take advice but that's only if your willing to use the advice in your own way. As for you Chewie... it is important to improve and defend a position. Change takes lots of time love this quote.

Ha!. You say you've stolen from me?. That's not legal in any state or it awful. No one should steal. But you're welcome {I think for this time}.😅

"If life were predictable it would cease to be life, and be without flavor." -Eleanor Roosevelt

"if you set your goals ridiculously high and it's a failure, you will fail above everyone else's success." -James Cameron

"Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier." -Mother Teresa

"It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light." -Aristotle

"Whoever is happy will make others happy too." -Anne Frank

"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all." -Helen Keller

"you have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose." -Dr. Seuss

Rain ... drops... fear... love.
Sorrow sits awaiting the night.
Leaves under our feet.
The wind blows among the lands.
Sound fills the empty air.
Movement among the deep blue sea.
The feel of sand, snow, sun.
A man said, " let the light be kind, let the light lead you".
My thoughts rise above this man's power.
We all need love.
We all need to be cared for.
We all need the earth to live.
This year 2021 will be a change for many.
We thank those who lost lives.
Those who lost life gave us more reason to let voices speak out. This is what I call in the dusk we grow... in love we improve.

Death. Salt. Pain.
why do those sound so real?.
The three words to live life so empty.
We have happy... as an emotion ... we have hope ...
we all have that positivity.
Why are the three words so devastating?.
Death. always seems so peaceful yet we don't want to let go.
Salt. Always seems to sting.. yet we try to hide the marks that make us human. Pain. We always feel pain when wrong things happen... yet we fix that and move on. What three words hurt the most in your own story?.