What are you doing?! Stop thinking like that! Think about how many different version of you could have
been in your situation; Your lucky to have a chance to experience a life compare to other sperm cell that died of!! Dont waste your life for your tired feelings because when you get up, tomorrow will be brighter than today! Remember this quote (by the way I saw this on google)
"If you can BREATHE, you STAND and if you can STAND, you can FIGHT"
So get up and keep pushing💪! I believe in you