@maddiehasabf I need to ask Ms ... what makes you ask the question, "Should I live or die?" ... that seems a bit 'out there' as a question, if you don't mind me saying.
We all go through bad times and good.... I have no idea of what goes on in your life, but surely nothing can be so bad as to bring you to the question in hand.
Tbh, I never expected to hit 40 due to my lifestyle and the way I knew it would go (from a young age) ....
YES there were times that I asked the question, but that was a personal question that I spent much time deliberating over.... as you can tell.... I lived on, to accept this world as it is.... A Gateway To The Next...
Keep ya chin up girl, from the pic, you have many many years ahead, and I hope for you that more are good over bad...
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ps...Welcome to TWS... if you need help of any kind, the global moderators and myself are more than happy to help. Good luck in your journey and don't take the easy option :)