Should I get a knife and kill myself already?

[CASON]

I wanna chooke myself to death. id love to do that but, every time asphyxiation makes me realize that im doing a mistake...why should "I" suffer because of them? and my hands automatically stops. But the vituperation they does is so fucking nasty that it kills me from inside each time. How many more time i have to die?? why cant i run away from this place? Cuz the frustration and detestation inside me for them is expanding even more. I want to eliminate them or wreck their existence. I want to see their dead face, sleeping forever. Wish the fire of hell blaze up their body and they cries for mercy. Though those terrorizing memory they gave me is not even close to this. They should tolerate even more! The only way to see me smiling from the bottom of my heart is to see them dead. But, Oops!..im changing again.. i dont care anymore the bullshit they says, i really dont give a fuck anymore. everything matters to me is friends. But the way they deceived me is revolting. Thinking of that makes me feel nauseous. I only had them in my life. But R.I.P. cuz they betrayed me badly.

[TheStrangest]

@kyra-white a "don't do it" from a person you love is a lot more useful than a "you're a coward" from a stranger or a person you dislike, now I'm sure that if you say so a "you're a coward" from a person close to you would've been helpful but the point is, it depends on the person saying it and i definitely don't think the guy calling the girl a coward knew enough to assume that such a statement wouldn't just be received as hurtful and derogatory since this was this girl's first post

[girlwhois18]

I want to tell all the people here who are calling her Coward and all those derogatory terms,
Me, @TheStrangest or @Willoww NEVER EVEN ONCE have supported the girl's suicidal thoughts.
And instead of fucking calling her "Coward" and shit, just remember: Suicidal people are much much braver than the entire human population. Even in the worst situations, we get up, we rise above all the hatred we have for ourselves. Yes, we do it with the support with of our family, friends, therapists, and psychologists but it takes our fragile will power to come back and decide that we want to live on. We are so "weird" that you can call us out with the world's ugliest curses, we would just laugh it off and go away but the self-hatred can make us contemplate suicide. This self hatred is usually because of mental illnesses like depression, anxiety, Bipolar Disorder and so on. If someone's struggle or pain disturbs you and you can't help them, step away and KEEP QUIET. Don't go on fuelling the pain that has brought them to such consequences.
Killing oneself is WRONG. But calling them out for that is WORSE. Suicidal people need emotional support They need help to see the good side of the life. They need people to make them realise that there is life beyond all that they are going through. They need someone to sort out their problems.
If you don't know how to help, it's okay. Just keep distance and don't say anything at all. Check out the internet to see how you can help them, if you really feel like helping them. I'm asking out because we perceive things differently. A suicidal person might take your words(you assumed that would help) rather very differently. Like @sup that day told me, he was calling her Coward so that it hits her and she becomes strong. Well for that, it might work for you @sup but for suicidal people, it doesn't.
JUST HELP HER and if You can't, SHUT THE FUCK UP.

[girlwhois18]

@blooddrunk Well, a lot of people look up to Internet for finding support because they can't get it in real life. So, I just want to help and protect them.

[TheStrangest]

@pafin said in Should I get a knife and kill myself already?:

I wanna choke myself to death. id love to do that but, every time asphyxiation makes me realize that im doing a mistake...why should "I" suffer because of them? and my hands automatically stops.

It sounds like the way you're doing it will never work so keep doing the same thing

But the vituperation they does is so fucking nasty that it kills me from inside each time.

What do people tell you?

How many more time i have to die??

Uhm, do you even English bruh? Live and see another day and eventually things will get better

why cant i run away from this place?

You can, probably. How old are you?

Cuz the frustration and detestation inside me for them is expanding even more.

WHO THE FUCK ARE THEY, WANT HELP? SAY WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM

I want to eliminate them or wreck their existence.

WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT

"I want to see their dead face, sleeping forever."

/: WHO?

Wish the fire of hell blaze up their body and they cries for mercy.

Yo hell doesn't exist and you're going a bit too far with this... WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

Though those terrorizing memories they gave me are not even close to this. They should tolerate even more!

Hey that's some extreme shit, care to explain why you're wishing so much suffering on other people?

The only way to see me smiling from the bottom of my heart is to see them dead.

Yo at this point this is just getting annoying. Did i just open an old brail Chinese book with half the pages missing on a random page? CAN YOU BE MORE FUCKING SPECIFIC

But, Oops!..im changing again.. i dont care anymore the bullshit they says, i really dont give a fuck anymore.

Really? Cuz you definitely sounded like you care very very much, did it take 3 min for you to flip?

everything matters to me is friends.

COOL. Now LIVE for THEM

But the way they deceived me is revolting.

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFDFRRFD CAN YOU BE ANYMORE VAGUE

Thinking of that makes me feel nauseous. I only had them in my life.

You can find better ones

But R.I.P. cuz they betrayed me badly.

R.I.P. to who? WHO?

[TheStrangest]

@sahko I think being beautiful is not a sufficient reason to live for most people

[TheStrangest]

@kyra-white said in Should I get a knife and kill myself already?:

@thestrangest By the way, do you have any personal experience with suicide? (have you ever tried killing yourself?)

Once, I've also been suicidal for a long time. Gotta sleep bye

[TheStrangest]

@kyra-white said in Should I get a knife and kill myself already?:

@thestrangest Umm... Did you just call me a guy?

I was talking about sup since he's the one that said she's a coward first. I don't know what gender you are tho

[girlwhois18]

@blooddrunk I know about those kind of people, for sure
. Thanks for your support, too.
Well, at least till the time I don't know if they are trolls, I think I'd like to help.

[RAJ04]

lololololol idhar bhi suru ho gyi,kya rkha h abhi marne me,u know ek din vese bhi marna pdega,us din sab khtm,rhegi to sirf yaadein,to marna mat,teri bhaut yaad aayegi apun ko,me to mar hi jaauga tere bina,baaki personal suggestion du to knife ki jagah hammer le easy hoga

[Willow]

@casonthemofo this shit has made me nauseous every time I scroll past it. Every. Single. Time.
Because people have somehow managed to twist some of it.
Ya know you may not have had the confidence to truly say what is going on. And thats okay. But you did something I was never able to do when i attempted suicide. You told someone how you felt.
You came to a hellhole full of strangers and cried out your thoughts. And that makes you one of the bravest people I know.
Its okay to feel betrayed, hurt, disgusted, sad . Its okay to want to give up. And there is really nothing I, a stranger, can say, to heal a problem unless you are willing to listen. And i dont know you all that well. But to err one here that was calling you a coward, to every idiot ever that made you feel like shit, just block them out. Because you did it. You posted it.
When i get really frustrated, typing out my words makes the anxiety, stress, depression, all fall away. But thats just me. Sometimes a rant is good, so Imma leave my messages open for you, message me.
As for everything else. I attempted suicee six times. Beginning when I was 12. So yes, I do know what the hell Im talking about. And maybe i cant relate to the situation (maybe), but I can certainly relate to emotions. Each and every time I have tried, my grandma would always hold me , and let me speak my mind. And then she would whisper (i wont ever forget) “sometimes a frown is a good rest for the strong smile you exercise to cover the pain within”
So forget about religion, because screw that today, worry later. Screw everythhig else. Because it all comes down to what bothers you. It all comes down to how strong you are. And maybe you think you arent that strong...but guess what...you made it this far. Hell, Ive made it this far. Trust me, you can do this. You just have to try

And if you are atheist/ a different religion, idc. Imma pray for you, because thats where I will find my solace, do as you please tho.

[TheStrangest]

@kyra-white and do you think people calling you a coward for it then or now is GOOD, do you think it is helpful, would it have helped you? I'm pretty sure it wouldn't but hey to each's own, i like being called weak even if it isn't true when i know the other person believes i can improve myself and is trying to provide constructive criticism but i wouldn't like that from strangers in the internet if confessing that i feel like shit and want to give up

"I feel like shit, I want to kill myself"

Random person i don't know:
"Huh, COWARD"

[TheStrangest]

@kyra-white got to go

[TheStrangest]

@altaf technically it is

[TheStrangest]

Hey @TalkWithStranger , thanks to you i can't DM this girl. You guys are fucking idiots

[sup]

[TheStrangest]

@mr-niceguy said in Should I get a knife and kill myself already?:

Seriously? You are too good to do such a thing. Have faith in Allah and your family and friends love you! I like you as a person too!

does having an imaginary friend really help that much through hard times? I don't think so, if the only reason you're alive is that you want a good afterlife, that means that you aren't really here for this life, to enjoy it, to be in it's every moment while it passes, it means that if you had the choice you'd kill yourself and be in heaven, i don't think it helps that much to believe in all this religious nonsense, I'd expect that believing that the most likely thing is that'll nothing after you die so you actually live for today, live for THIS life and no AFTERlife. I think that believing this is the only life means you have nothing to die for and you have EVERYTHING to live for. Either way believer or not when a person is depressed the most useful thing is to see a REAL person, a professional, like a therapist.

[girlwhois18]

@thestrangest EXACTLY.

[No one or anyone]

@thestrangest Actually, suicide is the coward's way out, since you aren't facing life as what it is, and life is basically one crappy event after another. But there are some rays of hope (definitely cliche) between those events, so you shouldn't give up that easily.

P.S. If you kill yourself you go to hell afterwards, or at least in my religion. And if it weren't for that "nonsense" then I wouldn't be alive today, I would have died in the parking lot of my church.

[BloodDrunk]

@casonthemofo yes