@rendezvous The arts such as music, drawing, painting and literature isn't strictly for those who have a particular talent for it, but it does take a great amount of interest to have an appreciation and passion to actually pursue such hobbies and careers with an art base. I am a Reanaissance-man when it comes to literature, photography and art (excluding music) but it takes too much time and effort on my part to pursue a hobbyist-level career based around those at this point in my life. I use to have the time, but need further motivation in life to rekindle the old flame. Maybe you seek physical or spiritual over mental. Try something involving a rush of dopamine or adrenaline, or visit and learn about the many spiritualities that may open your eyes to another meaning outside of your own.