@TinBelle You have a temporary condition that most deal with ina permanent fashion. Don't consider doing that and realize virtually everyone u know is suffering in a similar fashion as yourself. They may simply hide it better.
I know ur motivation to do much of anything is low... but see if u can realize it's not all about you...make it about someone with circumstances far worse than ur own. Try to make them feel better about themselves... Or take time to acknowledge what u do have. Vs what u lack
You have two functional arms and legs, I'm guessing! U weren't born with a hairlip or deformity...ur not retarded, you've eaten and showered today I bet... Just inventory urself...see if u don't see urself as more than hopeless