@isabellawuvsyou hey there! has your family tried asking help from other people such as friends and relatives? Maybe you got some friends or someone to help you to get a job and earn some cash. Not all hope is lost, instead of feeling too desperate you just need to find ways to earn money as we all know it is a necessity. I do hope it helps! Let all your pains, frustrations, emotions out. It would also be better to talk it out as it also eases your pain. This is a bad phase you are going through right now but things do get better. All the best!