So one last thing... Do you believe in anything other than the material world? If you do for example believe that you might live on after death, then... you believe that you have a soul, and are not just a thing, that is there to be used by men, and to use men.
St. Thomas of Aquinas taught, that boys get their soul with 3 months and girls with 4 :joy:... He copied that from aristotle. But all of that is ofc nonesense. If you believe you live on after death, then you believe, that your soul does not need a single functioning brain cell to live. Ergo the baby also does not need a functioning brain to have a soul and be a full person. Which means the only moment that makes logical sense as to when the baby gets its soul is conception.
That is why every non-materialist who has thought this through is against abortion. And why they speak out for the innocent. If they judge and hate the mother, they do nothing good though, because who is against the mother is obviously also against her child. Protecting life means protecting the mother, giving her warmth, support, and actual real life help with the pregnancy and everything around it.
You might change your view of life one day, you are still very young. So if the pain over not having given the poor thing a chance ever emerges, then don't keep it to yourself. Those who really want to protect life, they will not judge you, they will receive you with open arms. Because they know, that it isn't easy. And many of them have actually aborted a child as well and realized their great error.