I was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma and finished chemo last year. Unlike you, I was not blindsided. I cannot imagine the sheer shock involved in that. But you should know the lymphoma has high survival rates. You are in a serious hospital doing the very best that's needed. As hard as it is, you have to keep your head up. You have to fight the urge to give in the darkness, or else it's swallow you whole. What if you hadn't gone into the doctor with your wrist pain? What if you waited? this could be a whole lot worse. Keep your attitude upbeat and do WHATEVER you find necessary to stay upright. I write post it notes all around my house with positive sayings. But I went through all my treatment alone, and I hope you have support. Support is important.