Posts made by leelah

@Alberto thank you Alberto. I'm trying.

But we are unable to accept it. This is for Colorado but other states are doing it too. https://actionnetwork.org/events/colorado-defund-disaster-action?source=direct_link&

@licolotapus thank you

@Lazz I'll buy a ticket asap

@Sybaritee I understand

@Lazz you have been very nice. I really appreciate your good advice. I'm growing everyday and feel I'm better than I am the day before.

@Sybaritee thank you for sharing your opinion. I understand why you have it and you're right to share it. You're not being very kind but it seems you have good intentions.

@Lazz I've been in therapy for awhile and it has changed my life. It is the only reason I can share this.

@Sybaritee you seem angry

@Sybaritee I'm sorry for your faulty perception of me.

@Sybaritee thanks for sharing your opinion but your profile shows you being proud of being a good psychopath.

Thanks for the nice comments

@Anastasia-Smith I will look up how to file a complaint. I just don't have any evidence and what can they do 17 years later anyway.

@Anastasia-Smith I cried reading this, thank you for your kind words. I guess I feel like it is too late to do anything about it. Maybe him and his wife share a page because he is still a jerk. His daughters are so beautiful and his wife seems so nice. He rejected me so cruelly afterwards. I asked him to hang out and he said no while looking disgusted then him and his friend drove away and I heard them laughing. I remember I was standing all alone by the road feeling ashamed of myself. It seems so sad when I write it out. I've felt like I deserve idiot losers since then and they seemed safer in my opinion. I'm coming around though. I'm going to try to stay single until I get my life worked out. I'm already teaching my 10 year old how to say no and if she doesn't want it than she doesn't have to just because they are pushing for it.

@Dogban I should have and I know I'm not the first that hasn't. I blamed myself. I couldn't see that it was him forcing me and not me not begging to leave and telling him to stop. In my mind I shouldn't have let it happen.

@Matt_Aranha thanks Matt, I am just realizing this too and healing.

@Dogban I blamed myself until a few years ago for not yelling "no, stop", going over there with a friend in the first place, I was uncomfortable discussing it with my mom because we had never talked about sex, I was afraid she would be angry at me because I had lost my virginity, there was a huge blood stain on his bed and he seemed angry at me about it. I'm sure it was on his mattress forever. I wasn't agreeing to it though and he definitely knew I was afraid and uncomfortable. I was so young and innocent he pretty much took me to his bed and pulled off my pants saying "come on, sit here, it's fine" and got on top of me. I didn't even know for sure what was going on at first.

@Lazz I'm definitely working on it.

@Lazz I've talked to a few of those guys recently but the guy that raped me has a shared Facebook page with his wife and two beautiful little girls. I'm too nice to screw with his happy little life even though he literally fucked me and sent me down a bad road. My self worth was crushed and it has taken 17 years to finally start turning back around.

My first boyfriend cheated on me and I didn't believe it. A girl gave me a note of him asking her to suck his dick in the mens bathroom. And I swear when I was devastated and hysterical he told me "you look ugly when you cry" ... those were his first words to me.