@Sasuke33 Yes , I believe we need to maintain a balanced attitude in life .
Good but not so good , people will take advantage of you - to at least be a decent person if not a good person . (A decent person is someone who minimizes harm to others while a good person actively assists others.)
Bad but not so bad , that Hitler will congratulate you - to at least have ambition and enough greed to better yourself even if it means someone else wont get that position.
Problem was I wasn't living a balanced life .
Honestly it wasnt even about being mean . It was about breaking the mould . About venting .
I live in a world of rules , politeness and cordiality . Societal rules & surrounding can be suffocating.
IRL you have to consider your facial expression ,your tone , your body language . Its a constant barrage of considerations .
Online, I can get my thoughts out much clearer when I write, I can delete, and edit. I can sit on a comment for a while and think "Hmm, is that really what I mean?" .
Its about the freedom of expression and freedom of expressing .
In real life, I don't just jump into on going conversations that complete strangers are having, and start voicing my views on stuff that I may not even know nothing about.
Online I can be Sith Lord. In real life im just a polite smiling happy go lucky friend of all .
At first I was overcompensating for my politeness IRL by being somewhat mean online . But now I have found a happy balance
I might not be out there being Mother Teresa in the wider world, but at least now I bring genuine happiness in my small circle .
Happiness shared is happiness doubled !