@DIVYAM
The anxiety is to the roof for me. I want to give up and lock myself in my room. I’ve tried to talk about this in the past because I had doubts as you said and they just respond negatively to it. They have also said in the past they didn’t love me anymore and then that’s where my doubts started up. After everything we have been through I feel left hurting everyday. Maybe I don’t know how to forgive or I don’t forgive myself. I feel trapped

Ive met interesting people over the internet that I’ve made good memories with that I think about daily. Same for irl friends. People do grow up and change (because I met them when I was 16) but it still was the best experience meeting my internet friends. I’ve never been that happy.

I’m at a point in life where I feel lost. I’ve had a long relationship with a person who I thought I was in love with but I feel like I’m falling out. All I want to do is see people talk about their other half or hear peoples experiences to feel something. I don’t know if that made sense. I wish I could relive the best times of my life. Right now I can’t be happy for long before I’m back to feeling empty. This person was my best friend too to make it worse